12/21/2004 3:10:21 PM
Well no snow on the ground yet, butt fuck it's cold. So my life has been a bucket of miss-matched bullshit lately
Nothing fitting together with anything.
Over the past while (3monthsorso) my life on the outside of this computer has been a trip. Aliya and I tried to fix shit for umpteen millionth time, I decided that wasn't good for anyone in the world, we were a ticking time bomb, that was set on destruction of the world for the last 2and a half yrs. So that took forever to let her know that it's no more, I love you but goddamnit leave me the fuck alone. If she could have realized it sooner, my blood might not burn every time she calls or texts me.
So I spent a few hours a day hating women, and confused the rest of the day wondering what to do with my future
a. Move to the other end of the us, sitting on a beach letting life drift away.
b. Actually look for work in Seattle or anywhere else on the west coast from Bellingham to the san of Fran.
c. Ride out more of this doctor visit bullshit, and hope they figure out why my arm hurts. News flash you dumb Asses, it hurts cause I've only got one, and just because it hurts doesn't mean I shouldn't wipe my own ass, duh.
d. Or go back to school again, not a total professional student yet, I still need to take basket weaving 101 and girls volleyball with styles from teen wolf.
Well here comes another twist, well in the middle of these sleepless nights. Helplessly wishing that while growing up that someone would have told me that when they said lifes a bitch" or "it never gets any easier" or another great one we all blew off as bullshit I'm sure "wait till you get to be my age". What the fuck, damnit, who the fuck decided these bullshit life twists. Back to the point, I've met a girl. Well ran into a past girl and she looks amazing. Not that she wasn't hot in Olympia, but damn look at her now! So yeah, now I have no clue what the fuck. On no sleep, stressed from all the other things in my life. I forget it all, she rocks!! We get along great, it feels so good to have someone take your breath away when you see them. When it's obvious that youre making someone happy. I hope this newness doesn't were off anytime soon! Oh yeah, she's shorter than you. YES!! Shes smart, beautiful, independent, a redhead, a geek ...wow I just noticed how lame and sappy I was sounding, anyways she rocks,
The twist you say, well
In the midist of all this I've decided that I need to finish school first! Then I can go on vacation, maybe then I'll actually get something out of it a feel of actually accomplishing something instead of just doing it cause I want to, not that thats a bad way to live but the other day I figured out that Im now 26, an art geek, a professional student, unemployed sort of, and not doing a damn thing future wises yet.
So yeah, I'm going to a new film school in Bellingham. Finally, I've made a plan moving out of Seattle on the 31st of December. Quick call the manager of the building, tell him your leaving the end of the month. Quick, before you change your mind! Ahh, feels great to finally have a plan, you call the parents and the girlfriend. Ahh everyones happy, most of all I'm excited about the film school. I manage to sleep the next few nights, then BAMMM!!!
Another fuckin' twist, so yeah last year I was hired by a game company to do testing. To make a long story short, I got the job, passed the drug and background test. Wow a game tester for a highly acclaimed video game company, I was stoked. Well for the next year, the company emails you every three months or so to tell you that work will start soon. Then nothing back, another three months the same thing happens. Youre getting sick and tired of this bullshit, do I have the job or not.
Well my names finally made it to the top. They email me this after Ive enrolled in the school, found a new place to live up north; I'm stoked on the new girlfriend then wham
Another twist. Game testing for a top company. WTF, all plans fucted again. Do I take the job or move on.
I fuckin' take the job, it's once in a lifetime that you get these chance you dumb fuck, and if the girl cares she'll understand.
But in the back of my mind, I don't trust the job yet. Called and talked to the company, yup youre on the team just as soon as you pass the damn drug test again. Fuck it, you've finally got the job. Starting in the beginning if Jan, yes you motherfucker.
So the badass thing is the girl understands, your parents have finally that maybe all that video game shit they bought you growing up, well maybe it's gonna pay off, Who would of thought at 26 you'd be playing Nintendo for a living, going home to a beautiful redhead, and finally growing up a bit.
Oh yeah, the other day I decided to quit the ciggs again, hopefully It works. So just so you remember you wrote this to yourself telling yourself to relax and take it on step at a time. And everything you thought was set in stone today, will change in a heartbeat tomorrow so be ready. Dont freak out and run around like a chicken with your head cutoff. You made it this far, one more step closer to the master plan, World domination. Who's coming with me?
merry holiday n shit ya'll!!
Well no snow on the ground yet, butt fuck it's cold. So my life has been a bucket of miss-matched bullshit lately
Nothing fitting together with anything.
Over the past while (3monthsorso) my life on the outside of this computer has been a trip. Aliya and I tried to fix shit for umpteen millionth time, I decided that wasn't good for anyone in the world, we were a ticking time bomb, that was set on destruction of the world for the last 2and a half yrs. So that took forever to let her know that it's no more, I love you but goddamnit leave me the fuck alone. If she could have realized it sooner, my blood might not burn every time she calls or texts me.
So I spent a few hours a day hating women, and confused the rest of the day wondering what to do with my future
a. Move to the other end of the us, sitting on a beach letting life drift away.
b. Actually look for work in Seattle or anywhere else on the west coast from Bellingham to the san of Fran.
c. Ride out more of this doctor visit bullshit, and hope they figure out why my arm hurts. News flash you dumb Asses, it hurts cause I've only got one, and just because it hurts doesn't mean I shouldn't wipe my own ass, duh.
d. Or go back to school again, not a total professional student yet, I still need to take basket weaving 101 and girls volleyball with styles from teen wolf.
Well here comes another twist, well in the middle of these sleepless nights. Helplessly wishing that while growing up that someone would have told me that when they said lifes a bitch" or "it never gets any easier" or another great one we all blew off as bullshit I'm sure "wait till you get to be my age". What the fuck, damnit, who the fuck decided these bullshit life twists. Back to the point, I've met a girl. Well ran into a past girl and she looks amazing. Not that she wasn't hot in Olympia, but damn look at her now! So yeah, now I have no clue what the fuck. On no sleep, stressed from all the other things in my life. I forget it all, she rocks!! We get along great, it feels so good to have someone take your breath away when you see them. When it's obvious that youre making someone happy. I hope this newness doesn't were off anytime soon! Oh yeah, she's shorter than you. YES!! Shes smart, beautiful, independent, a redhead, a geek ...wow I just noticed how lame and sappy I was sounding, anyways she rocks,
The twist you say, well
In the midist of all this I've decided that I need to finish school first! Then I can go on vacation, maybe then I'll actually get something out of it a feel of actually accomplishing something instead of just doing it cause I want to, not that thats a bad way to live but the other day I figured out that Im now 26, an art geek, a professional student, unemployed sort of, and not doing a damn thing future wises yet.
So yeah, I'm going to a new film school in Bellingham. Finally, I've made a plan moving out of Seattle on the 31st of December. Quick call the manager of the building, tell him your leaving the end of the month. Quick, before you change your mind! Ahh, feels great to finally have a plan, you call the parents and the girlfriend. Ahh everyones happy, most of all I'm excited about the film school. I manage to sleep the next few nights, then BAMMM!!!
Another fuckin' twist, so yeah last year I was hired by a game company to do testing. To make a long story short, I got the job, passed the drug and background test. Wow a game tester for a highly acclaimed video game company, I was stoked. Well for the next year, the company emails you every three months or so to tell you that work will start soon. Then nothing back, another three months the same thing happens. Youre getting sick and tired of this bullshit, do I have the job or not.
Well my names finally made it to the top. They email me this after Ive enrolled in the school, found a new place to live up north; I'm stoked on the new girlfriend then wham
Another twist. Game testing for a top company. WTF, all plans fucted again. Do I take the job or move on.
I fuckin' take the job, it's once in a lifetime that you get these chance you dumb fuck, and if the girl cares she'll understand.
But in the back of my mind, I don't trust the job yet. Called and talked to the company, yup youre on the team just as soon as you pass the damn drug test again. Fuck it, you've finally got the job. Starting in the beginning if Jan, yes you motherfucker.
So the badass thing is the girl understands, your parents have finally that maybe all that video game shit they bought you growing up, well maybe it's gonna pay off, Who would of thought at 26 you'd be playing Nintendo for a living, going home to a beautiful redhead, and finally growing up a bit.
Oh yeah, the other day I decided to quit the ciggs again, hopefully It works. So just so you remember you wrote this to yourself telling yourself to relax and take it on step at a time. And everything you thought was set in stone today, will change in a heartbeat tomorrow so be ready. Dont freak out and run around like a chicken with your head cutoff. You made it this far, one more step closer to the master plan, World domination. Who's coming with me?
merry holiday n shit ya'll!!
But booze, women money, power, what will get you more, can you ever really know?
But at least the decisions that you have to make are more win, win, then die, die, so ho knows, maybe in the end it will all actually work out,
well until then see you in hell fucker