Sometimes life hits you hard. My mom passed away this
Monday and the four days since then have been the longest
of my life. I'm a total momma's boy...
But she's had cancer for eight years--we knew this was
coming. We just didn't have a clue that it would be coming
this quickly. She got diagnosed with 6 months left to live
a week before that and I think it just shows how tough she
has been being able to hold on if she really deteriorated
that fast afterwards.
Funny thing is, after the exhaustion and remorse, I'm
actually happy for her--she was in so much pain. The
hospice folk were so incredibly nice. It was really a blessing
to have them. It made me hesitate about my consideration
of Pediatrics, if only for a moment. She kept her dignity,
and we'll be able to remember her for how she lived.
Thanks for listening.
Monday and the four days since then have been the longest
of my life. I'm a total momma's boy...
But she's had cancer for eight years--we knew this was
coming. We just didn't have a clue that it would be coming
this quickly. She got diagnosed with 6 months left to live
a week before that and I think it just shows how tough she
has been being able to hold on if she really deteriorated
that fast afterwards.
Funny thing is, after the exhaustion and remorse, I'm
actually happy for her--she was in so much pain. The
hospice folk were so incredibly nice. It was really a blessing
to have them. It made me hesitate about my consideration
of Pediatrics, if only for a moment. She kept her dignity,
and we'll be able to remember her for how she lived.
Thanks for listening.
I find myself crying sometimes in the ICU when I see patients with their families... saying goodbye...
I know what death is. I know why it exists.
But it doesn't make it any easier when there is so much love....
I'm glad you had all that additional time with her.
I know I'm just a stranger on the internet, but if you need anything.. let me know.
I'm so sorry to hear that your mum passed away. If you need anything, ditto Lil JackKnife.
*big hugs to you and your family*