today was a busy day. i awoke to the sound of the phone ringing. it was my dad, telling me that my mom had come out of her surgery (entire reproductive system removed) alright. that was good news, but he did say she was in a lot of pain, which made me feel bad...so bad, in fact, that i ended up having strange strong stomach...
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i fucking hate money
decent day: did some chores, remembered to eat, went to WM & had to spend $ on food because we were out of some important stuff, bought the kids a couple toys, too, came home & picked up the kids from mom's, more chores.
shitty night: gabe showed up & took out the trash & fed kagome while i washed dishes...but...
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decent day: did some chores, remembered to eat, went to WM & had to spend $ on food because we were out of some important stuff, bought the kids a couple toys, too, came home & picked up the kids from mom's, more chores.
shitty night: gabe showed up & took out the trash & fed kagome while i washed dishes...but...
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turbulence:
I hope you can trust him living up to his promise.
Fuck money.
And something nice:
*hug* &
Fuck money.
And something nice:
*hug* &
kagome slept all through the night last night in the playpen & katana stayed on her pallet in the living room. i finally got a good night's sleep. i still woke up & did a lot of chores, but i guess i'll always do that. at least i'm mostly done now, just got the dishes & clothes left because i'm not in the mood for...
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turbulence:
Hope it goes well!!!
Virtually cuddling her away
Virtually cuddling her away
nikonphoto80:
I'm glad you got a good nights sleep.
I need to clean to, but to day is my only day off all week and last night I got super drunk.
I hope his visit goes well.
I need to clean to, but to day is my only day off all week and last night I got super drunk.
I hope his visit goes well.
so i'm starting to really doubt my ability to do this whole single mom thing again. i wake up & it's straight to work for me. i hate that. i don't like having to change 2 diapers, dress & feed 2 babies, dress myself, and so on. i barely have time for a fucking shower. i don't think i've had a real clean feeling in...
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turbulence:
You can do it. The kids get older and your mom can help soon again.
This situation will work out slowly. But it will work out
This situation will work out slowly. But it will work out
nikonphoto80:
Man I'm so sorry, I wish I could help you out some how, I know you will make it, its just going to take some getting use to. they better let you have your food stamps, you need them even more now, what are they going to do let your kids starve to death.
so, long story short....woke up feeling really depressed...called every babysitter i know, no luck...drove the kids to town...went to alisha's & hung out for an hour...took the kids to the park & let katana play while i swung kagome...dropped kids off at WM with my rents...went to tattoo shop to set up appt. for tuesday & found out a friend of mine is the new...
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nikonphoto80:
That is great news, just one step closer to your dream.
wasting life
goddamnit. i am so fucking frustrated. all i want in life is to be a body piercer & live on the fucking beach. is that so much to ask? i know i'm only 23, but i'm thinking...i've got 2 kids now & single again...and i don't know how i'm ever going to do it. i mean achieve something. not just something. my goals....
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goddamnit. i am so fucking frustrated. all i want in life is to be a body piercer & live on the fucking beach. is that so much to ask? i know i'm only 23, but i'm thinking...i've got 2 kids now & single again...and i don't know how i'm ever going to do it. i mean achieve something. not just something. my goals....
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turbulence:
You *will* achieve that and more! And if you would fuck up on the way, I'd carry you the rest.
I would not want you without your babies. Not a second.
Relax - things will work out.
I wasted more life than you did
*hugs* & :kisses:
PS: It's ok that you think that thoughts - it just shows it was the right step, cause who was holding you back for the last 2 years?
I would not want you without your babies. Not a second.
Relax - things will work out.
I wasted more life than you did
*hugs* & :kisses:
PS: It's ok that you think that thoughts - it just shows it was the right step, cause who was holding you back for the last 2 years?
today is a new day. i feel okay. me & the kids slept late. it was nice. i didn't wake up to a messy house like i have been. i did tons of dishes last night. but anyway, i got the kids dressed & fed & dropped them off at mom's. then i hauled ass to the health dept. to pick up the WIC vouchers...
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nikonphoto80:
It sounds like a great day. I'm glad things went good today, that was nice of your mom, I'm glad she did that for you.
turbulence:
I sat 2 mins in front of the picture and smiled
where to begin? it's hard to know. gabriel moved out tonight. it was a somewhat mutual decision. it was weird helping him pack his things. we even argued over a pair of pants that we both wanted. isn't that stupid? at his request, i gave him part of our tax refund money. i wonder what he'll spend it on. i'm thinking pot & guitar stuff...
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nikonphoto80:
Oh my god I'm so sorry, I thought things were going so good, what happened? I wish I could do something for you.
I guess we are both sad tonight.
I hope it doesn't cost to much to get your car fixed.
I hope you mom is going to be ok, I will be thinking of her. How are you going to work with out anyone to watch the kids?
Can't Gabriel watch the kids at his parents house?
Can Alisha come over to see you?
I feel so bad for you.
I guess we are both sad tonight.
I hope it doesn't cost to much to get your car fixed.
I hope you mom is going to be ok, I will be thinking of her. How are you going to work with out anyone to watch the kids?
Can't Gabriel watch the kids at his parents house?
Can Alisha come over to see you?
I feel so bad for you.
turbulence:
Just get a big *hug* now and we talk about things later.
I guess UA in fall and babysitting once a week can be worked out somehow. For sure. It's a long time until then...
You'll see about the beach trips
I guess UA in fall and babysitting once a week can be worked out somehow. For sure. It's a long time until then...
You'll see about the beach trips
yesterday took a turn for the better. i dropped kagome off at mom's & took katana for a playdate with my friend alisha's son, reily. she had a ton of fun & so did i. alisha & her fiance, david, + me & a new friend named colter played spades. it was girls versus guys & girls won overall! lots of fun. i had to...
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turbulence:
Well you got Kagome
She's so loveable
She's so loveable
today has been interesting. i woke up around 9am when my food stamp case worker called. she said that i'll be receiving my appointment in the mail soon. i hope it goes through fast!
i went back to sleep for a couple hours, but by 11am kagome was kicking me & trying to pull my lips off (her little way of saying wake up). so...
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i went back to sleep for a couple hours, but by 11am kagome was kicking me & trying to pull my lips off (her little way of saying wake up). so...
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turbulence:
Cute baby pics now!
You know me
You know me
nikonphoto80:
i hope it goes through fast also.
I'm getting ready to clean my whole place right now.
Well I hope he keeps trying, you are a great person and deserve a great man.
How did he get the job offer? I hope he likes it a lot.
You could try to sale the stuff on ebay.
I wish I could get a big check in the mail.
I'm getting ready to clean my whole place right now.
Well I hope he keeps trying, you are a great person and deserve a great man.
How did he get the job offer? I hope he likes it a lot.
You could try to sale the stuff on ebay.
I wish I could get a big check in the mail.
Busy day. Strange story about Kat. Well you can work on that...
Kagome is sooo cute! - I know I'm repeating myself