goddelusion

I am leaving SG. Finding it a bit stagnant lately. May come back one day, who knows. Best of luck to all of you! Hugzzzzzzzz

Life is full of surprises. I shall be a father, for the first time, come November. She will have the baby and, after the initial shock, it turns out im quite excited. The guy that said that he would NEVER have children of his own! Life finds a way i guess..

So this gorgeous girl from chat blocked me for no reason at all and what do i do? I send her a gift from her wishlist lol. She thanked me in her blog not knowing who sent it. Why did she block me? Well, i dont know...must have been necause i PMd her asking to accept a friendship request because i wanted to be able...
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I wish the rain would just fucking stop. In dire need of sunshine i am.

I havent yet had sex this decade! And i am aching!

I hate it when women that i worship or desire from afar become pregnant. They lose all the magic for me. It is as they fall from grace and become human. I am indeed a bizarre human being. Btw, how i hate all that mushy bull about the glowing, the perfect experience and blah blah blah...Argh, it makes me wanna puke

Well, i did leave the tag "Auschwitz" on a set of a skinny SG. It enraged a lot of people, and when i thought about it more clearly i understood why. But it was not intended to offend the model. I was as skinny as her for many years, well into my thirties. It was merely a "colourful" and dumb synonym.

As long as people are too afraid and lazy to use their brain to comprehend the universe, the venom of religion will keep poisoning our world. The dark ages never went away and they wont until all of us get rid of the thought control of dogma and myth. Religion feeds on fear and ignorance. You, on the other hand, feed from it as good...
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What new secrets does your heart conceal?
Which old longings do remain?

How much did time erase?
And what did it reveal?

If we meet again one day,
what will we recognize?
The features we held most dear,
Or the patterns we now dispise?

I still ache so the loss of you.

Life goes on. You get hurt and then you get better. And so do the ones you hurt. And life goes on for them as well. You wish to be alone and then you are lonely. The cycle repeats itself. On and on until the time someone tells you, you are dying. Or you just die. My best friends brother, my cousin, is dying of...
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How can you still love me
When youve seen all the filth i hide inside?
How can i hurt you still
When im so different from your dreams?

All the things we will never do.
All the plans laid to waste.
I miss your hands like they were mine.
This feeling of loss will never die.

There are very few things worse than hurting someone you care a lot about. Theres no harder decision than to leave someone you still have feelings for. Guilt is a razor you scar yourself with.