Last night i met someone new...It was something totally different than I have ever been used to...Someone who I think gets me......but its wierd cause I feel like maybe I am not just a toy or a fancy piece of arm candy......and I am not sure how to react to it.....his voice moves me in ways I could never begin to describe, and his touch is gentle but electric.
Internal monologue: (Don't think too much of it....you know how things like this end.....don't get yourself hurt or disappointed)second internal monologue replying to the first: (but you know you like him and there is something there you haven't had before)first replying to the second: (Shut up you are going to fuck things up!)
I already can't wait to see him again......there are so many more things I want to do...I almost fell asleep on him last night.....it was like I said something I have never felt.....
It goes to prove that your life is not ever going to be simply what you believe you have condemed it to be.
On another note..I got in late last night..and forgot I had been cleaning my room...and had milk crates full of DVDs and Video games in the hall and ran smack into them in the dark....and sliced myself open.....then I finally get up this morning tired as hell...and put my headphones on my music phone to listen to on the walk into work....and leave my keys in the passenger seat with the doors locked...so I had to have the Bloomfield Hills police unlock my car... they were nice about it......and I found the guy cute...but just not interested for some reason......urghhh what has this boy done to me.....
I am leaving for upnorth tonight...I almost don't wanna go..
I am sorry for anyone who is hurt by me exploring relationships...and searching out happines....I didn't meant o cause any problems.....and I am sorry if anyone feels led on.....it wasn't my intent...well maybe it kinda was but not consciously.....Its very hard for me to let go of some things in my past...I think I try to continuity and moving on perpetuates change....but anyhow....I like the new right now....
kisses all!
Internal monologue: (Don't think too much of it....you know how things like this end.....don't get yourself hurt or disappointed)second internal monologue replying to the first: (but you know you like him and there is something there you haven't had before)first replying to the second: (Shut up you are going to fuck things up!)
I already can't wait to see him again......there are so many more things I want to do...I almost fell asleep on him last night.....it was like I said something I have never felt.....
It goes to prove that your life is not ever going to be simply what you believe you have condemed it to be.
On another note..I got in late last night..and forgot I had been cleaning my room...and had milk crates full of DVDs and Video games in the hall and ran smack into them in the dark....and sliced myself open.....then I finally get up this morning tired as hell...and put my headphones on my music phone to listen to on the walk into work....and leave my keys in the passenger seat with the doors locked...so I had to have the Bloomfield Hills police unlock my car... they were nice about it......and I found the guy cute...but just not interested for some reason......urghhh what has this boy done to me.....
I am leaving for upnorth tonight...I almost don't wanna go..
I am sorry for anyone who is hurt by me exploring relationships...and searching out happines....I didn't meant o cause any problems.....and I am sorry if anyone feels led on.....it wasn't my intent...well maybe it kinda was but not consciously.....Its very hard for me to let go of some things in my past...I think I try to continuity and moving on perpetuates change....but anyhow....I like the new right now....
kisses all!
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c6h12o6:
yeah, I know people. Who know people. I'll check around for you. heh
drkobra:
congratulations! being in a daze is usually the best part when things are going well and you meet an interesting person (guy or girl). Hope everything turns out for the best with you and stops being stormy.