Exactly how I have felt
in order
these last couple of months
So let's not even try, you're right.
Let's ball it up and throw it out the window.
It's becoming all so clear in my mind,
I've thought this thing through more like once or twice.
I feel that this is my last request to you.
Hold your breath, bottle it up and save it for the next one.
It's safe to say we've been riding this all night.
None of this will ever change your mind.
It's never safe to rely on borrowed time.
Now we're both undone and it's time to open up your eyes.
Consequence is our need in times like this,
Feeling free is our modern disease.
You're a classic disaster, with a knack for losing your exterior.
I'm so sick from staring at the mirror.
This all needs a break from you,
And I am used to this.
I fear that I'm just an end, so you play the mistaken,
And I play the victim in our screenplay of desire,
And I'm still writing the letters I'll never send.
Running in circles, I can't forget how many times
I've played this in my mind.
Feeling free, feeling free
Consequence is our need in times like this,
Feeling free is our modern disease.
You're a classic disaster, with a knack for losing your exterior.
I'm so sick from staring at the mirror.
This is my panic.
This is my call to arms.
i'm done telling you that i'm in love
what i have will never be enough
come on baby go live life on your own
everything inside is breaking down
and you don't want to be hanging around
i don't think i want to leave myself alone
i'm done having to apologize
i'm done living inside your eyes
when the lights go out whats left to know
nothing ever makes sense to me
a broken branch of the family tree
kill the lights now baby watch me explode
there is no revolution and i'm done doing things i don't want to do
there is no restitution
and i'm done living in this decline
i'm done watching you redesign
come on baby let's go walk out the door
i'm done showing up to fucking work
taking orders from a fucking bitch
i'm in the chair now go ahead and flip the switch
i'm done doing things i don't want to do
and i'm sick and tired of setting up to be like you fucked up thrown out and overdue
im done
there is no revolution
Take me to the station
And put me on a train
I've got no expectations
To pass through here again
Once I was a rich man and
Now I am so poor
But never in my sweet short life
Have I felt like this before
You heart is like a diamond
You throw your pearls at swine
And as I watch you leaving me
You pack my peace of mind
Our love was like the water
That splashes on a stone
Our love is like our music
Its here, and then its gone
So take me to the airport
And put me on a plane
I got no expectations
To pass through here again
why have i felt this way
....?
The show and A LOT more....
the show was....okay
i felt rushed, unprepared, and like i was "playing" not "performing"
but it was good and fun
and after we played
things were a little weird
i figure now i can go public with this
If there are those who don't know
Suzi and i Broke up a while back
the reason being
she was "unhappy"
so we brake up and things were pretty sad for awhile
After awhile i find all sorts of things out
Not only did she end a two year relationship
she got with someone else
the same week......
and as it turns out
She had a head start
I guess they were holding hands a flirting all over each other
Weeks before we broke up
i found this out..like this
* ( setting up scenario) no one knows we had broken up yet,simply because, I just didnt talk about it*
Girl A: Did DAmein and Suzi break up?
Friend: Yea.. how did you know
Girl A: I saw her all over some other guy a few weeks back
Freind: REALLY, because...they just broke up the other day.....
i know, i know, Nice, huh
well at the show, suzi shows up
okay,whatever, its cool, we were talking and doing the "Friends" thing
But she was...well....kinda being " friendly"
but it was nice things not being too akward
i really wanted to be friends and what not
but i just felt a little odd with her,
example
i was talking to Tim Terry ( trevor's dad )
and she comes up behind me
and starts rubbing my back and my arm
Corey turns around
looks at suzi
looks at me
and mouths "WTF?!?!"
and i mouth" ...i dunno..i...dunno"
and then
she was talking to all my friends
which is cool, once again i just wanted toi be friends
but
everytime she left, they did nothing but crack jokes..and make fun of her
but whats expected?
she dumped thier best friend and cheated on him
and it was always understood amongst them
that she treated him like shit
are they going to be so happy to hangout?......
so , i see her crying after we were done playing our set
and asked her what was up and she said it was nothing
i see her again
still crying......
so i ask her whats up again ........naturally,
"nothing"
so i told we need to talk, because obviously you dont make it that easy for your Ex to see you in sad shape, i mean, making it pretty obvious
so
we go outside and talk
i pretty much knew what it was
but
i wasnt certain
however
i was right
she said that she missed being around
she thought that being with someone else might help
but it didnt mean anything to her
and they split
this being the first time we had talked in quite awhile
i had some things to say and ask
i asked about the infedelity
and yes it was true.......all true
here she was
after all that, after all the shit she did
here lemme recap:
she ended a two year relationship,
got with another guy in the same week,
oh and....she cheated on me
and here she was
telling me she missed being around?
she missed hanging out?
she missed coming to band practice?
SHE MISSED ME?!?!
yea....
ill admit
just lately i had come to terms with everything
and i had put things behind me
decided that im wasting time dwelling and i should just go on and stop feeling sorry
after all....
people do make mistakes
( here it comes )
but for two years i was with her,not anyone else, i went through a lot of shit for her and with her, i put up with so much shit, i cared so much about her, i went out of my way for her, i put her above other people in my life, i put her above myself, i put her above almost everything one time or another, i listened for her to say something, for two goddamn years-- listened to her, about her day, what she felt,what she thought, AND I CARED, I ACTUALLY CARED, i wasnt like the oodles of people that would come and go in her life, i stayed, i would forgive and forget, i made her feel better when she was down, i made her laugh, i made her smile, when things got really bad I was always there to make things better, NO MATTER WHAT, no one else did that, i was patient with her, i was willing, i was always open to anything and everything she liked or enjoyed, i tried to get involved, i really got concerned about her art and her future, i got concerned about her well being, i spent nights thinking about her and days talking about her, and no matter what, i had her back, even when she was in the wrong, i stood against friends, family, and everyone else, FOR TWO GODDAMN YEARS.....for two years.....i loved her...."love" ladies and gentlemen..."love"
and what do i get
dumped for another guy
cheated on
and lied to about it
and then she tells me 2 months later
" she misses me"
it just really hurt, everything really hurt me a lot
i thought i meant more
i thought i was more
i really cared and loved her sooo much
and i just cant see what i did
to get this
to deserve this
thanks, a bunch
..............
...............
.....................
........................
"I'm seventeen and I'm crazy"-farenheit 451
-DAmein
in order
these last couple of months
So let's not even try, you're right.
Let's ball it up and throw it out the window.
It's becoming all so clear in my mind,
I've thought this thing through more like once or twice.
I feel that this is my last request to you.
Hold your breath, bottle it up and save it for the next one.
It's safe to say we've been riding this all night.
None of this will ever change your mind.
It's never safe to rely on borrowed time.
Now we're both undone and it's time to open up your eyes.
Consequence is our need in times like this,
Feeling free is our modern disease.
You're a classic disaster, with a knack for losing your exterior.
I'm so sick from staring at the mirror.
This all needs a break from you,
And I am used to this.
I fear that I'm just an end, so you play the mistaken,
And I play the victim in our screenplay of desire,
And I'm still writing the letters I'll never send.
Running in circles, I can't forget how many times
I've played this in my mind.
Feeling free, feeling free
Consequence is our need in times like this,
Feeling free is our modern disease.
You're a classic disaster, with a knack for losing your exterior.
I'm so sick from staring at the mirror.
This is my panic.
This is my call to arms.
i'm done telling you that i'm in love
what i have will never be enough
come on baby go live life on your own
everything inside is breaking down
and you don't want to be hanging around
i don't think i want to leave myself alone
i'm done having to apologize
i'm done living inside your eyes
when the lights go out whats left to know
nothing ever makes sense to me
a broken branch of the family tree
kill the lights now baby watch me explode
there is no revolution and i'm done doing things i don't want to do
there is no restitution
and i'm done living in this decline
i'm done watching you redesign
come on baby let's go walk out the door
i'm done showing up to fucking work
taking orders from a fucking bitch
i'm in the chair now go ahead and flip the switch
i'm done doing things i don't want to do
and i'm sick and tired of setting up to be like you fucked up thrown out and overdue
im done
there is no revolution
Take me to the station
And put me on a train
I've got no expectations
To pass through here again
Once I was a rich man and
Now I am so poor
But never in my sweet short life
Have I felt like this before
You heart is like a diamond
You throw your pearls at swine
And as I watch you leaving me
You pack my peace of mind
Our love was like the water
That splashes on a stone
Our love is like our music
Its here, and then its gone
So take me to the airport
And put me on a plane
I got no expectations
To pass through here again
why have i felt this way
....?
The show and A LOT more....
the show was....okay
i felt rushed, unprepared, and like i was "playing" not "performing"
but it was good and fun
and after we played
things were a little weird
i figure now i can go public with this
If there are those who don't know
Suzi and i Broke up a while back
the reason being
she was "unhappy"
so we brake up and things were pretty sad for awhile
After awhile i find all sorts of things out
Not only did she end a two year relationship
she got with someone else
the same week......
and as it turns out
She had a head start
I guess they were holding hands a flirting all over each other
Weeks before we broke up
i found this out..like this
* ( setting up scenario) no one knows we had broken up yet,simply because, I just didnt talk about it*
Girl A: Did DAmein and Suzi break up?
Friend: Yea.. how did you know
Girl A: I saw her all over some other guy a few weeks back
Freind: REALLY, because...they just broke up the other day.....
i know, i know, Nice, huh
well at the show, suzi shows up
okay,whatever, its cool, we were talking and doing the "Friends" thing
But she was...well....kinda being " friendly"
but it was nice things not being too akward
i really wanted to be friends and what not
but i just felt a little odd with her,
example
i was talking to Tim Terry ( trevor's dad )
and she comes up behind me
and starts rubbing my back and my arm
Corey turns around
looks at suzi
looks at me
and mouths "WTF?!?!"
and i mouth" ...i dunno..i...dunno"
and then
she was talking to all my friends
which is cool, once again i just wanted toi be friends
but
everytime she left, they did nothing but crack jokes..and make fun of her
but whats expected?
she dumped thier best friend and cheated on him
and it was always understood amongst them
that she treated him like shit
are they going to be so happy to hangout?......
so , i see her crying after we were done playing our set
and asked her what was up and she said it was nothing
i see her again
still crying......
so i ask her whats up again ........naturally,
"nothing"
so i told we need to talk, because obviously you dont make it that easy for your Ex to see you in sad shape, i mean, making it pretty obvious
so
we go outside and talk
i pretty much knew what it was
but
i wasnt certain
however
i was right
she said that she missed being around
she thought that being with someone else might help
but it didnt mean anything to her
and they split
this being the first time we had talked in quite awhile
i had some things to say and ask
i asked about the infedelity
and yes it was true.......all true
here she was
after all that, after all the shit she did
here lemme recap:
she ended a two year relationship,
got with another guy in the same week,
oh and....she cheated on me
and here she was
telling me she missed being around?
she missed hanging out?
she missed coming to band practice?
SHE MISSED ME?!?!
yea....
ill admit
just lately i had come to terms with everything
and i had put things behind me
decided that im wasting time dwelling and i should just go on and stop feeling sorry
after all....
people do make mistakes
( here it comes )
but for two years i was with her,not anyone else, i went through a lot of shit for her and with her, i put up with so much shit, i cared so much about her, i went out of my way for her, i put her above other people in my life, i put her above myself, i put her above almost everything one time or another, i listened for her to say something, for two goddamn years-- listened to her, about her day, what she felt,what she thought, AND I CARED, I ACTUALLY CARED, i wasnt like the oodles of people that would come and go in her life, i stayed, i would forgive and forget, i made her feel better when she was down, i made her laugh, i made her smile, when things got really bad I was always there to make things better, NO MATTER WHAT, no one else did that, i was patient with her, i was willing, i was always open to anything and everything she liked or enjoyed, i tried to get involved, i really got concerned about her art and her future, i got concerned about her well being, i spent nights thinking about her and days talking about her, and no matter what, i had her back, even when she was in the wrong, i stood against friends, family, and everyone else, FOR TWO GODDAMN YEARS.....for two years.....i loved her...."love" ladies and gentlemen..."love"
and what do i get
dumped for another guy
cheated on
and lied to about it
and then she tells me 2 months later
" she misses me"
it just really hurt, everything really hurt me a lot
i thought i meant more
i thought i was more
i really cared and loved her sooo much
and i just cant see what i did
to get this
to deserve this
thanks, a bunch
..............
...............
.....................
........................
"I'm seventeen and I'm crazy"-farenheit 451
-DAmein
first song is young and aspiring by underoath
second song is heart attack american from the bronx
and the third song is no expectations of the rolling stones
-DAme!n