I miss you so much.
Watching these old videos of us only tears open these wounds that i've tried so hard to forget.
It's not fair, why did this have to happen to us, when were so young?
I didn't get enough time with you and i'm sorry, i'm so sorry I didn't make the most of it at the time.
I feel like something inside me will open explode one day and no one will ever understand what this feels like but me.
I hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this.
This is why I cement this in most of the time.
It's so so so so so much easier to not have to feel so helpless.
..and it scares me that I don't think about you every day anymore.
I love you so much and it doesn't feel weird to say that and I will miss for as long as I live because you were someone who was meant for me and to shape me and to help me be a better person.
This never gets any easier.
Watching these old videos of us only tears open these wounds that i've tried so hard to forget.
It's not fair, why did this have to happen to us, when were so young?
I didn't get enough time with you and i'm sorry, i'm so sorry I didn't make the most of it at the time.
I feel like something inside me will open explode one day and no one will ever understand what this feels like but me.
I hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this.
This is why I cement this in most of the time.
It's so so so so so much easier to not have to feel so helpless.
..and it scares me that I don't think about you every day anymore.
I love you so much and it doesn't feel weird to say that and I will miss for as long as I live because you were someone who was meant for me and to shape me and to help me be a better person.
This never gets any easier.
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vegas:
I read your journal but dont really feel at liberty to comment on it...its always difficult commenting on personal stuff...but all the same i wanted to let you know that i read it.
violenthalo:
you play gigs in essex, whats u bands name, see like u i to live in essex (sadly) but me i have high hopes of moving to rreading (what is wrong with me)