Holy Craps! new blog! not that anybody reads these things anyways...So yeah. I've realized that I have been somewhat corrupted by this town, but I kinda choose to be. Kinda like a drug its seems, I can quit anytime, its all up to me. That's always been kinda my attitude towards drugs, I could do it and stop, not ever do it again. I kinda have this arrogance that my willpower is stronger than most. But nevertheless, this town is corrupt. Peoples behavior and attitude I believe have all been shaped by this godforsaken place. Yet, I still like it here. I'm content here. I don't feel an overwhelming desire to escape from it all. Sure at times I'd like to live a little, discover what more there is out there, outside of this box, but who doesn't have that? i'm just in no hurry to do it. I am worried though, of kinda being alone here, isolated. The only person who can seem to bring out the adventurous side of me is my buddy Jeff. But even he's gonna split soon, I've gotten to know him a lot better these past few months, we are not so different and yet completely opposite. He's not perfect, and he says emotionally he's fucked, but deep down, he cares and he has a good heart. What will I do with myself when he goes? i'll find some balance I suppose, find a way to strike out on my own. Till then its good times hanging out...St. pattys day will be the last hurrah before he leaves so I look forward to that.
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