Awesomely weird dream followed by simply weird dream during my nap tonight.
First dream was of this wonderful house that kept going as I kept walking. Whilst walking through the comparatively crappy kitchen (comparative to the rest of the house... ffs there was a gothic chapel) I said "Is this my house? This kitchen will not do!" It was then that I realized I was dreaming and began lucid dreaming and "made things appear" in the dream i.e. more and more rooms including a room with music and a stash box.. in the box a cigarette case full of joints. I was really proud of myself at that point for manifesting drugs in my dream. That's not the weird part. In my dream, around the time I lit the joint, I started to wake up and mentally protested "um.. getting high here!" The next thing I knew I was lying in bed with a smoking joint in my mouth "thinking 'zohmygod what the fuck?!" The smoke woke the manchild up and he took my joint from me saying "haven't you ever accidentally brought something through from a dream" whilst turning on the light and stashing my hard-won joint presumably in a hand-pocket I didn't previously know about. Then I realized that I was still in the dream and had had a "false awakening" then ACTUALLY woke up rather disappointed that the joint had been taken from me. Hypnopompic depression. For a moment there, not only had I thought that I had gotten away with a free joint but that my dreams were magic.;_;
I fell back to sleep and my next dream was about how much I hate the Cosby show and how I had to fish out a mile or so of chewing gum from my throat... very slowly. It was gaggy. Not as rad. I still feel gaggy.
Fucking odd.
In other news, I think I may have sussed out a possible career/education path.
I'm heartily considering forensic psychology or, more specifically, criminal psychology. It isn't well paid given the work and education involved but I'm pretty obsessed with various applicable forms of psychology and profiling and, when compared to my past fields of study, it is more employable. In my philosophy course (I was on a philosophy major tract previously) my professor noted that I seemed most interested in why philosophical concepts existed (evolutionarily, anthropologically, cognitively etc) and often scolded me for making the philosophy course less about remembering existent philosophies and more about figuring out why people need those philosophies and how they are brought about. I still think that psychology is paramount to determining philosophical theories in a scientific way. If one believes something to be empirically true because of mitigating psychological factors (even when those factors seem objective in that they are societal and not personal) it can make or break theses. I'm a bit fixated on hypothesizing scientifically and the trap of psychology seems like the most difficult bastion of bias to overcome. It hides from argument often and being a skeptic (in the true sense of the word) requires an understanding of those pitfalls.
Anyhow, provided I do go into that field I'd want to be more on the criminal profiling end of the forensic psychology spectrum than the divorce or trauma counseling business the reason being that I'm more into the academics of psychology than I am with the concept of psychoanalysis and counseling... which I'm not sure I agree with the practice of as both seem statistically futile with most of the interesting forms of abnormal psychology and I don't fancy listening to sad housewives. I'm not a "helper" or "nurturer" type... I'm an analytical type. (INTJ last time I checked.. though I feel personality tests are fallible.. that's how INTJ I am.)
Having an idea of what I might want to do that is an actual profession beyond simply being an academic is pretty motivating. Then again, I might simply be watching too much Wire in the Blood. I need to work out actual available jobs in the path in which I'm interested (as profiling jobs are few and far between) before I get too into the idea but I think that some form of psychology/psychiatry would suit me and make use of my fondness for schooling and provide for related jobs along the path of my degree acquisition (there are psychology related viable jobs at most echelons of education in that field.) I think I need a carrot at the end of my stick these days.
First dream was of this wonderful house that kept going as I kept walking. Whilst walking through the comparatively crappy kitchen (comparative to the rest of the house... ffs there was a gothic chapel) I said "Is this my house? This kitchen will not do!" It was then that I realized I was dreaming and began lucid dreaming and "made things appear" in the dream i.e. more and more rooms including a room with music and a stash box.. in the box a cigarette case full of joints. I was really proud of myself at that point for manifesting drugs in my dream. That's not the weird part. In my dream, around the time I lit the joint, I started to wake up and mentally protested "um.. getting high here!" The next thing I knew I was lying in bed with a smoking joint in my mouth "thinking 'zohmygod what the fuck?!" The smoke woke the manchild up and he took my joint from me saying "haven't you ever accidentally brought something through from a dream" whilst turning on the light and stashing my hard-won joint presumably in a hand-pocket I didn't previously know about. Then I realized that I was still in the dream and had had a "false awakening" then ACTUALLY woke up rather disappointed that the joint had been taken from me. Hypnopompic depression. For a moment there, not only had I thought that I had gotten away with a free joint but that my dreams were magic.;_;
I fell back to sleep and my next dream was about how much I hate the Cosby show and how I had to fish out a mile or so of chewing gum from my throat... very slowly. It was gaggy. Not as rad. I still feel gaggy.
Fucking odd.
In other news, I think I may have sussed out a possible career/education path.
I'm heartily considering forensic psychology or, more specifically, criminal psychology. It isn't well paid given the work and education involved but I'm pretty obsessed with various applicable forms of psychology and profiling and, when compared to my past fields of study, it is more employable. In my philosophy course (I was on a philosophy major tract previously) my professor noted that I seemed most interested in why philosophical concepts existed (evolutionarily, anthropologically, cognitively etc) and often scolded me for making the philosophy course less about remembering existent philosophies and more about figuring out why people need those philosophies and how they are brought about. I still think that psychology is paramount to determining philosophical theories in a scientific way. If one believes something to be empirically true because of mitigating psychological factors (even when those factors seem objective in that they are societal and not personal) it can make or break theses. I'm a bit fixated on hypothesizing scientifically and the trap of psychology seems like the most difficult bastion of bias to overcome. It hides from argument often and being a skeptic (in the true sense of the word) requires an understanding of those pitfalls.
Anyhow, provided I do go into that field I'd want to be more on the criminal profiling end of the forensic psychology spectrum than the divorce or trauma counseling business the reason being that I'm more into the academics of psychology than I am with the concept of psychoanalysis and counseling... which I'm not sure I agree with the practice of as both seem statistically futile with most of the interesting forms of abnormal psychology and I don't fancy listening to sad housewives. I'm not a "helper" or "nurturer" type... I'm an analytical type. (INTJ last time I checked.. though I feel personality tests are fallible.. that's how INTJ I am.)
Having an idea of what I might want to do that is an actual profession beyond simply being an academic is pretty motivating. Then again, I might simply be watching too much Wire in the Blood. I need to work out actual available jobs in the path in which I'm interested (as profiling jobs are few and far between) before I get too into the idea but I think that some form of psychology/psychiatry would suit me and make use of my fondness for schooling and provide for related jobs along the path of my degree acquisition (there are psychology related viable jobs at most echelons of education in that field.) I think I need a carrot at the end of my stick these days.
mercie:
once you see him as Dr. Christian Troy, you will never see him another way again. I looked over your profile stuff for the TV shows that are similar, and if you love Skins (which I ♥ the fuck out of) and Dexter, you'll DEF like Nip/Tuck. If you don't, for some ungodly reason, I will bake you a batch of cookies... and then we can't be friends anymore. i kid. but watch it, for me.