quiet frankley i think im depressed, well im already on mild anti depressants for anexity and panic attacks, and they tend to be a early part of depression so im told, i keep getting into the blackest of moods, not being able to see that its just that, a mood that will pass, i feel like i have nothing to achive or look forward to. i cant work in a job without hating myself and the rest of the human race, i even get down the only way i can feel is to express it with anger and rage, which of course is not the best way to be most fo the time, i really have no idea what to do anymore not that i did in the first place.
this isnt to say i dont enjoy life an have good days as i do which is why its even weirder when i feel dark, i know i can enjoy myself and see beautie in the world but for some reason i cant remember that when im not feeling all that,guess i should chat with my doctor or something, or just listen to more joy division, what you think?
this isnt to say i dont enjoy life an have good days as i do which is why its even weirder when i feel dark, i know i can enjoy myself and see beautie in the world but for some reason i cant remember that when im not feeling all that,guess i should chat with my doctor or something, or just listen to more joy division, what you think?
ive struggled for years and finally got myslef on pretty much an even keel. It's incredibly tough, my heart goes out to you.xx