2006 In Review
Disillusioning - if I were to sum up my life in 2006 in a word that would be the one.
2006 brought a lot of change for me, most of which was negative, such as getting laid off of my job of seven years.
But the most impacting aspect of it would have to be what had started off promising, after the turmoil experienced in both 2004 & 2005, yet which ultimately spiraled into disillusionment.
Looking back it's pretty fucked up how circumstances conspired to bring someone into my life out of nowhere (and out of the depths of my despair), discover an amazing connection was shared, advocate being fated for one another, and make me truly feel alive, happy, and even fall in love again - only to disappear, leave behind empty dreams and erase me from their life completely in the blink of an eye without explanation.
I can't shake feeling hopeless and more jaded than ever before.
Listening to words like these, I think of her and wonder...
The dry brittle bones of birds
That would not eat and were deserted
And made small sounds in high trees
The heart needs, the heart needs
Something of substance to weather the long months
Of slender means and purposeless
Ingestion of superfluous
Medications for the heartsick
And the precious damaged children
Weary of advertisements everywhere
Telling them all they need
Is this and this and this and
Then you can be okay, you will be happy now
Are you happy now?
Woke up to the sound of the tap
Water running, overflowing
Your head opened up on the bathroom floor
Your try to remember try to remember
The dream you were having it seemed so inviting
Slender means and purposeless
Ingestion of superfluous
Medications for the heartsick
And the precious damaged children
Weary of advertisements everywhere
Telling them all they need
Is this and this and this and
Then you can be okay, you will be happy now
Are you happy now?
Oh now I remember, oh everything!
It was so wonderful, yeah so wonderful
She...she was driving in a sleeveless dress
And oh we listened to oh the radio
It was a lovely song, oh...
Disillusioning - if I were to sum up my life in 2006 in a word that would be the one.
2006 brought a lot of change for me, most of which was negative, such as getting laid off of my job of seven years.
But the most impacting aspect of it would have to be what had started off promising, after the turmoil experienced in both 2004 & 2005, yet which ultimately spiraled into disillusionment.
Looking back it's pretty fucked up how circumstances conspired to bring someone into my life out of nowhere (and out of the depths of my despair), discover an amazing connection was shared, advocate being fated for one another, and make me truly feel alive, happy, and even fall in love again - only to disappear, leave behind empty dreams and erase me from their life completely in the blink of an eye without explanation.
I can't shake feeling hopeless and more jaded than ever before.
Listening to words like these, I think of her and wonder...
The dry brittle bones of birds
That would not eat and were deserted
And made small sounds in high trees
The heart needs, the heart needs
Something of substance to weather the long months
Of slender means and purposeless
Ingestion of superfluous
Medications for the heartsick
And the precious damaged children
Weary of advertisements everywhere
Telling them all they need
Is this and this and this and
Then you can be okay, you will be happy now
Are you happy now?
Woke up to the sound of the tap
Water running, overflowing
Your head opened up on the bathroom floor
Your try to remember try to remember
The dream you were having it seemed so inviting
Slender means and purposeless
Ingestion of superfluous
Medications for the heartsick
And the precious damaged children
Weary of advertisements everywhere
Telling them all they need
Is this and this and this and
Then you can be okay, you will be happy now
Are you happy now?
Oh now I remember, oh everything!
It was so wonderful, yeah so wonderful
She...she was driving in a sleeveless dress
And oh we listened to oh the radio
It was a lovely song, oh...
I wish my camera worked. Id so have a pic of him!
see everyone i ask to come with me will tell me they can, then i mention it again and they tell me they cant. I dont see why its this hard for me to get someone to go damnit!!