coyotekid

Solid! I done has me a date on Saturday! I need something to go well, so hopefully this is it!

Nothing like being on your own to find out who you really are. I've actually discovered that I'm quite the jerk, and the trippy part is, I'm ok with that. I figure if people don't want to deal with a jerk, I probably shouldn't be friends with them anyway. As luck would have it, the very few people I have given my time, energy, and...
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I'm just gonna lay in bed until they come to evict my rotting, malnourished, and dessicated corpse.

Now meeting is pleasure and parting is grief
And a false-hearted lover is worse than a thief
A thief can but rob you and take what you've saved
But a false-hearted lover'll take you to your grave

I'm troubled I'm troubled
I'm troubled in mind
If trouble don't kill me
I'll live a long time

The grave will detain you and turn you to dust...
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Two things in life I was never good at: A) Attracting women. B) Finding a job. At this rate, I think I'm more likely to attract a woman.

And so I have returned! In the new apartment, which still needs a little sprucing up, but it feels like home now, so that's a plus!

"In touch with the ground, I'm on the hunt, I'm after you!" That is in reference to job hunting of course. Finally able to start picking it back up again. Just found this sweet-ass dispatcher job online just a...
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I forgot how awesome this feels. So my best friend is writing a story, and she's stuck. She asked me for some advice, and after reading it, my mind just went apeshit with possibilities. I've been sending her e-mails all night with "more to add" much to her chagrin I'm sure. Hahaha. She'll be doing a lot of reading tomorrow as she sifts through all...
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Fuck it. I'm going back to the kitchen, I think. I used to love cooking. And learning. And in a restaurant you can do both if you work with the right team. Friday is my official move-in day, when I get the last of my furniture and other assorted stuff into the new apartment. Dammit, I'm gonna make this new life work if it kills...
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You know. Plenty of people say alcohol doesn't help with your issues; I used to believe them. But I do have to give the whole alcohol-as-medicine theory some credit. This is my second night in a row sloshed as a motherfucker, and I can say I'm definitely enjoying my nights more than my days. Six months of pain, grief, and emotional turmoil, and I get...
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Little something from the old school seems fitting lately. Hahahaha


Lyrics to Anything, Anything by an old-school 90's band called Dramarama.

Oh, gee, what is it tonight?
At least just tell me what the hell is wrong,
Do you want to eat, do you want to sleep, do you want to drown?
Just settle down, settle down, settle down...
I'll give you give candy, give...
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I am seriously wigging the fuck out. I'm about to take a huge leap tomorrow, and it's either going to fuck me hardcore, or well...free me from all this bullshit. Taking on an apartment without a job, striking out on my own when I haven't actually LIVED on my own before... Take a deep breath, Kris. It will be ok.

I need beer!

See, I could use more days like that.

Getting things taken care of. Not sitting still... Then unwinding with a nice relaxing evening with a good friend.
I'm sure tomorrow will have to suck to make up for it, but for now, I feel euphoric. I'll hold on to that as long as I can.