A lot of shit has gone wrong in my head since I left for NY, I've honestly been too depressed to blog about it, and too drunk to operate a keyboard for more than a minute or two at a time.. I think I've become an alcoholic.. but that's not what this post is about.
Here's the short version-
While I was in NY my primary goal was to visit my grandfather on his deathbed, because he's dieing, he's going to be gone any day now. While I was there my father dropped the bomb that he's got cancer, and I've been on a warpath toward self destruction for about 10 days... and I really need to get over this shit and start enjoying myself with something, but the whole situation has made me such an insufferable jerk I'm driving people off, so maybe this post is about how I'm becoming an alcoholic, but I'm putting the bottle away tonight, and calling my therapist tomorrow to see if she's got room for me to resume therapy.. I really need to get my head screwed back on straight again.
Here's the short version-
While I was in NY my primary goal was to visit my grandfather on his deathbed, because he's dieing, he's going to be gone any day now. While I was there my father dropped the bomb that he's got cancer, and I've been on a warpath toward self destruction for about 10 days... and I really need to get over this shit and start enjoying myself with something, but the whole situation has made me such an insufferable jerk I'm driving people off, so maybe this post is about how I'm becoming an alcoholic, but I'm putting the bottle away tonight, and calling my therapist tomorrow to see if she's got room for me to resume therapy.. I really need to get my head screwed back on straight again.