Hey everyone!
God I do suck at these updates. I am back. Back again. Shadys back.....er wait sorry mind decided to wonder off there for a sec. Ok so new update. well.........
Things are too bad to be honest. A bit of nightmares still hanging around, i think alot of it from stress that i put on myself to make sure i do a good job. Ahh the job, things are going good on this part. The "worm" is still tunneling away in the mountain, though has broken down a couple of times but was quickly fixed. No serious accidents up on surface this round. We now have snow on the ground up on the mountain camp and down here in the valley. Should be here for all of winter. Expecting more snow actually tomorrow. Our Avalanche Techs have been working on the 62 avalanche chutes (paths) between road km 17 and km 28 to make sure there are no trees or anything major that would fall down onto the road. Hope this season means when we set off explosives to clear the chutes all that comes down will be the snow and ice and not dirt.
On a personal note, I lost the final member of my military platoon 3 weeks ago. I guess the demons we live with were finally too much. Was a very good man and someone I will miss. I made it as sole survivor though really dont feel like a survivor some days. The demons are very good at chipping away at ones soul. I am truly lucky i have great friends who dont ask for details but are there for me to talk to, or just burst out crying for no visible reason but dont make a big deal about it. Got a couple of good people here at work that understand when i do break down and start crying. Its hard here though cause I cannot go to a dr and get diagnosed officially as having PTSD because the min that happens I lose both my medical licenses, and my 2 security licenses get suspended and then its a TON of dr appointments and forms to fill out to see if i get to keep them or not. Not something I want to do or go thru. It sucks for us who do suffer cause we wont go report because we lose our ability to work and such. So we suffer to do the job we love.
Ok enough doom/gloom. A HUGE thank you to all my followers! having this many has really boosted my spirit and well honestly ego. Dont know why you all are following this ole guy but damn do i ever appreciate it! And speaking of following, I love going to everyones profile and see all the new stuff you all post. Great way for me to escape everything. Thank you thank you thank you to you all!!!!!!
Remember to check out our hopefuls sets when they come and comment if you like the set. Lets try to get more girls pink and really admire all the beautiful ladies here!
Ok back to work I go.
Take care everyone!
Polabear!