I gave up drinking. Period. "."
I tryed to set myself up as a role model among my friends, tried to lead by example... but all i set myself up for was disappointment. Raging alcoholics, the whole lot of them. Of course they, like everyone, fears change and that which they don't understand. I've managed to lose most of my friends of 6 years in only a few weeks as all trust has some how broken down. I'm so stubborn, though. I won't concede and I won't be dragged back into that negative place no matter how hard they outwardly try to get their "old Will" back. It's still sucks, as much as I am proud of my resolve. It's spooky how people can simply cease to matter to one another. I don't know if it makes me feel dirty and less than human, or above it all... maybe both at the same time.
I tryed to set myself up as a role model among my friends, tried to lead by example... but all i set myself up for was disappointment. Raging alcoholics, the whole lot of them. Of course they, like everyone, fears change and that which they don't understand. I've managed to lose most of my friends of 6 years in only a few weeks as all trust has some how broken down. I'm so stubborn, though. I won't concede and I won't be dragged back into that negative place no matter how hard they outwardly try to get their "old Will" back. It's still sucks, as much as I am proud of my resolve. It's spooky how people can simply cease to matter to one another. I don't know if it makes me feel dirty and less than human, or above it all... maybe both at the same time.
Congrats on quitting the alcohol. I wouldn't, myself, but go you!