I'm not entirely sure whether I should be posting a blog on this site... I don't have any pics up and aside from Xian (who is awesome, don't get me wrong), I certainly haven't made any friends here yet. It's a little strange to me to be posting things in a public blog in a place where no one will read them, but... hey. I don't think I'd be me if I weren't a little strange.
That said, I'm having a hell of a time with this coming out thing. I mean, I told my friends and my family, I told Tim (hardest thing I've ever done), I told a couple of the people I work with... but somehow it hasn't sunk in that not only am I single, for the first time in my life I'm actually being completely honest with myself, and everyone else, about my sexuality.
I know that I made the right decision, as scary and painful as it was. I've even accepted the fact that a lot of things are going to have to change-- starting with us getting a three-bedroom apartment so Tim and I won't have to do the awkward "sharing a room with your ex" thing. But when will it actually sink in?
That said, I'm having a hell of a time with this coming out thing. I mean, I told my friends and my family, I told Tim (hardest thing I've ever done), I told a couple of the people I work with... but somehow it hasn't sunk in that not only am I single, for the first time in my life I'm actually being completely honest with myself, and everyone else, about my sexuality.
I know that I made the right decision, as scary and painful as it was. I've even accepted the fact that a lot of things are going to have to change-- starting with us getting a three-bedroom apartment so Tim and I won't have to do the awkward "sharing a room with your ex" thing. But when will it actually sink in?
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xianasu:
Oh, I stand in front of my mirror for HOURS practicing. It's a grueling process, really.
bloodcravings:
Better you than me; it doesn't sound like fun at all. I spend entire days wearing outfits that don't match and strange hairstyles just to AVOID standing in front of my mirror.