SO I want to blog but I don't know what to talk about. Well me I suppose, at least for this first one. Lately I've been reflecting alot about myself anyway so it would seem a good place to start.
I've changed so much this past year, in almost every way possible. I walked away from a career that I had spent literally the entirety of my adult life (age 18+) trying to pursue in favor of an uncertain future in a direction I had been told for most of my life I simply didn't have the ability to do.
I suppose I should clarify that, after high school I went to college for various majors, I spent three semesters in a school and I'm pretty sure I had three majors. I ended up leaving because I just felt I wasn't gaining anything from and went with what I had been doing for work to give myself money which was restaurant and food service, and when my parents wanted me to go back to school I just went and earned myself a degree in restaurant management just to get stuck doing the same jobs I had been doing before I had the degree for the same money and to top it all off I hated it, but I didn't realize that at the time. No it took a million things falling apart and a period of suicidal contemplation and my best friend getting drugged at a bar and trying to kill me after he reacted badly to whatever he was slipped for me to really look back and realize what I was doing with my life and that I was unhappy. So I ended up moving in with my folks again quitting my job and going to the college my father teaches at to get a degree in science (which I have only one semester left on! WOOHOO!) with the eventual hope of going in to medicine of some sort, definitely human, probably nursing.
My mother recently said to me that she feels like in the last year I'm grown about ten years I don't know if that's completely accurate but I do feel I've grown, more this year than in the past few. I actually care about what happens and about what my future will bring beyond making money and having a job, I know I want to go some where and do something with my life, again beyond make money, keep job, make more money, repeat until dead. Yeah I think that's enough soul bareing for now. I think I'm gonna go make my self some eggs and toast with sauce vin blanc.
I've changed so much this past year, in almost every way possible. I walked away from a career that I had spent literally the entirety of my adult life (age 18+) trying to pursue in favor of an uncertain future in a direction I had been told for most of my life I simply didn't have the ability to do.
I suppose I should clarify that, after high school I went to college for various majors, I spent three semesters in a school and I'm pretty sure I had three majors. I ended up leaving because I just felt I wasn't gaining anything from and went with what I had been doing for work to give myself money which was restaurant and food service, and when my parents wanted me to go back to school I just went and earned myself a degree in restaurant management just to get stuck doing the same jobs I had been doing before I had the degree for the same money and to top it all off I hated it, but I didn't realize that at the time. No it took a million things falling apart and a period of suicidal contemplation and my best friend getting drugged at a bar and trying to kill me after he reacted badly to whatever he was slipped for me to really look back and realize what I was doing with my life and that I was unhappy. So I ended up moving in with my folks again quitting my job and going to the college my father teaches at to get a degree in science (which I have only one semester left on! WOOHOO!) with the eventual hope of going in to medicine of some sort, definitely human, probably nursing.
My mother recently said to me that she feels like in the last year I'm grown about ten years I don't know if that's completely accurate but I do feel I've grown, more this year than in the past few. I actually care about what happens and about what my future will bring beyond making money and having a job, I know I want to go some where and do something with my life, again beyond make money, keep job, make more money, repeat until dead. Yeah I think that's enough soul bareing for now. I think I'm gonna go make my self some eggs and toast with sauce vin blanc.