So tonight was uhm weird. We went out for dinner, Crysta B and I, and then Brian and Kristen met us there, that was fine. B also opened her presents there.
After that we went to the night club. When we got there there was like no one there but then by 1 it was packked. there was a lot of preppy people from my grad classm but there was also a lot of people from out of town
for once it wasnt full of native people, and this was the day after welfare day too, so thats very odd.
Anyway, Darcey came and I was glad I guess. we talked and danced a bit, but of course like usual he did the whole over protective thing trying to claim me as his property. I never said anything to him about it, but there should have been nothing wrong with me sitting beside an old school mate and talking to him, while also having darcey on the other side and talkng to him as well.
But Darcey decided to get really drunk and keep running away and then I seen that he was dancing closely with a bunch of girls, probably trying to make me jealous. But why?? I didnt get it. anyway, I went on with my own thing. At the end of the night I seen he had his arm around one of the girls, which I know is like one of the sluttiest girls in town.
The best part is, that im not jealous.
Usually I have a slight bit of jealousy in me or I will try and call him or text him to find out if hes actually hooking up with someone, but honestly I dont care, and I feel GREAT. its awesome. but kinda sad at the same time realizing im over it.
Im not completely over him, but I am very close to it. and hopefully he will sleep with her, so he can get over me too, and then maybe we can be friends.
I feel happy about this right now. everything is still very confusing and odd though, but I feel not jealous and free.
After that we went to the night club. When we got there there was like no one there but then by 1 it was packked. there was a lot of preppy people from my grad classm but there was also a lot of people from out of town
for once it wasnt full of native people, and this was the day after welfare day too, so thats very odd.
Anyway, Darcey came and I was glad I guess. we talked and danced a bit, but of course like usual he did the whole over protective thing trying to claim me as his property. I never said anything to him about it, but there should have been nothing wrong with me sitting beside an old school mate and talking to him, while also having darcey on the other side and talkng to him as well.
But Darcey decided to get really drunk and keep running away and then I seen that he was dancing closely with a bunch of girls, probably trying to make me jealous. But why?? I didnt get it. anyway, I went on with my own thing. At the end of the night I seen he had his arm around one of the girls, which I know is like one of the sluttiest girls in town.
The best part is, that im not jealous.
Usually I have a slight bit of jealousy in me or I will try and call him or text him to find out if hes actually hooking up with someone, but honestly I dont care, and I feel GREAT. its awesome. but kinda sad at the same time realizing im over it.
Im not completely over him, but I am very close to it. and hopefully he will sleep with her, so he can get over me too, and then maybe we can be friends.
I feel happy about this right now. everything is still very confusing and odd though, but I feel not jealous and free.
voodoun:
I'm glad to hear that you aren't jealous. It's a horrible feeling. I have a very bad case of it right now and it's ruining my friendship. I wish it would disappear because I don't want to lose my friend.
katalina:
Um... you're super cute! You should never be jealous!