It's been a very very long time since I've updated my SG blog. I guess I think no one will actually read it. But mostly just because Ive been disconnected from the cyber world.
A lot has happened in the past couple of months since I posted something. I had a really rough new year so far: I lost my job, got a job 6 months later, then lost it two days later. What can I say? I'm not good at fundraising, not in the least. I lost my wallet. Then I got mugged. Fuck. And I'm still unemployed.
So I'm living off student loan checks, and trying desperately to find a job and to pay off all my bills. Not helping the situation, my seasonal active disorder jumped right in during the dark cold days and nights of winter to keep me company, making what was already bleak and depressing downright melancholy. I was not the most fun person to be around to say the least. I didn't go out, I hated school, I stayed in bed, I ate too much and then too little. I barely picked up the phone. I was a mess.
School was rough, I couldn't concentrate in all my classes cuz I was either too worried about getting money to pay my cell phone (my only means of communication- don't have a landline or internet at the moment) or buy groceries to not starve or I just depression just made me not care anymore. So I missed a lot of classes and half assed my work, which is why I have to take a class over again now. On top of that, I've been having the most annoying time with my student account and I have to graduate 3 months later than anticipated.
Then I went home to my parents house in the 'burbs with my own huge sun- filled room and lovely bed, spent lots of quality time with my mum and saw people that I love that I hadn't seen in forever, including my gay bestest friend. I cheered up, gained perspective and clarity, and got a little more positive. So while I'm still a big mess of emotions and craziness, I'm happy. Not entirely, but I give it time.
I've started to gain back some enthusiasm for things that I love and I'm starting to gradually turn my life around. I haven't given up on the job thing and I'm looking for internships and scholarships and putting an effort into my work. I'm a vegetarian now, for animal rights, health, and environmental reasons, which in turn has made me look at my daily activities and the things I put in my mouth in a whole different way, and I can get up in the morning, have more energy and am more active, steadily losing weight, and in an overall pleasant mood.
So all in all things were shit and now they're not so bad and later they'll be excellent. That's how life goes.
until next time...
A lot has happened in the past couple of months since I posted something. I had a really rough new year so far: I lost my job, got a job 6 months later, then lost it two days later. What can I say? I'm not good at fundraising, not in the least. I lost my wallet. Then I got mugged. Fuck. And I'm still unemployed.
So I'm living off student loan checks, and trying desperately to find a job and to pay off all my bills. Not helping the situation, my seasonal active disorder jumped right in during the dark cold days and nights of winter to keep me company, making what was already bleak and depressing downright melancholy. I was not the most fun person to be around to say the least. I didn't go out, I hated school, I stayed in bed, I ate too much and then too little. I barely picked up the phone. I was a mess.
School was rough, I couldn't concentrate in all my classes cuz I was either too worried about getting money to pay my cell phone (my only means of communication- don't have a landline or internet at the moment) or buy groceries to not starve or I just depression just made me not care anymore. So I missed a lot of classes and half assed my work, which is why I have to take a class over again now. On top of that, I've been having the most annoying time with my student account and I have to graduate 3 months later than anticipated.
Then I went home to my parents house in the 'burbs with my own huge sun- filled room and lovely bed, spent lots of quality time with my mum and saw people that I love that I hadn't seen in forever, including my gay bestest friend. I cheered up, gained perspective and clarity, and got a little more positive. So while I'm still a big mess of emotions and craziness, I'm happy. Not entirely, but I give it time.
I've started to gain back some enthusiasm for things that I love and I'm starting to gradually turn my life around. I haven't given up on the job thing and I'm looking for internships and scholarships and putting an effort into my work. I'm a vegetarian now, for animal rights, health, and environmental reasons, which in turn has made me look at my daily activities and the things I put in my mouth in a whole different way, and I can get up in the morning, have more energy and am more active, steadily losing weight, and in an overall pleasant mood.
So all in all things were shit and now they're not so bad and later they'll be excellent. That's how life goes.
until next time...
37921dec:
damn. glad things are on the upside!