So I dont know who will read this if anyone, but honestly life for me has been like the seasons ever changing, unpredictable and never the same twice. I cant say I really enjoy much of anything , havent felt great joy in forever. I exist, standing on my own, never standing up for myself and never standing out in the crowd. This needs to change soon because I feel unhealthy, uninspired, and unappreciated, heres to life, heres to death, from the past and into the future, tommorow is a new day and yesterday doesnt matter...