Oh God my life is stagnant...
Most of my off days I do the same things. That would be reading a book, playing video games, doing laundry, EATING. I spend them solitary for the most part... I guess I'm just starting to realize how fucking bored I really am.
And I''m losing the will or the want to talk to Ian every day anymore. I think Im moving into acceptance. Although we are still seeing each other the end is inevitable. He's going to UK for a year and then to Chicago for film school. He seems really excited about his future for the first time and that is happy.
I wish i would suddenly find my "going back to school" moment. Ive been struggling to decide if I should. Ive already got a degree but Im not getting any fucking younger. There is only one thing I like MORE than I like people. BOOKS. This leaves me fully open to being a librarian. Sexy, right? But other than that there is an English degree which you can do fuck all with. And you dont need one to write a book. A good book. Augusten Burroughs is my favorite memoirist and he's never been to high school. But no one wants to read about my life because ive not done anything yet.
Most of my off days I do the same things. That would be reading a book, playing video games, doing laundry, EATING. I spend them solitary for the most part... I guess I'm just starting to realize how fucking bored I really am.
And I''m losing the will or the want to talk to Ian every day anymore. I think Im moving into acceptance. Although we are still seeing each other the end is inevitable. He's going to UK for a year and then to Chicago for film school. He seems really excited about his future for the first time and that is happy.
I wish i would suddenly find my "going back to school" moment. Ive been struggling to decide if I should. Ive already got a degree but Im not getting any fucking younger. There is only one thing I like MORE than I like people. BOOKS. This leaves me fully open to being a librarian. Sexy, right? But other than that there is an English degree which you can do fuck all with. And you dont need one to write a book. A good book. Augusten Burroughs is my favorite memoirist and he's never been to high school. But no one wants to read about my life because ive not done anything yet.