vassago

I miss her so much.
i haven't heard anything in days, and my imagination is playing against me.. who was she really with? why was i blown off? why were these events so covert?
should i be feeling this way..?
i cant help that this feels like a place ive been dragged to before.

As usual, it has been awhile since i have posted on here.
I rarely visit Sg lately.... though i have meant to do something about that for awhile.

Im going to be adding some images to the "pics" section, should anyone care at all. I've made it a point to get re-aquainted with this site... i see that a lot has changed since i was...
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school has gotten quite intense.

Italian has me spinning, there are some things for which i am still having trouble in comprehending.
I have also got to get moving on an expository speech. The instructor seems partial to instructive material, so i am considering an explanation of pinhole cameras and pinhole photography.

i get ahead of myself so easily. Ive got so many potential projects...
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what a busy night...

ive finished reviewing for the 'speech' exam tomorrow.

now, i get to fall asleep next to God's little gift...

It's time to spend a bit, get reaquainted with the site.
i haven't even looked through a set in months.

Ive contacted none of my 'friends', and the inverse is also true.
so, over the next few days.....

otherwise, i study. Ive got 14 credit hours per week to worry about right now.
For once once, busy with something other than my unhealthy preoccupations.
much...
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a profile overhaul?
what is so relevant dear??

im a shadow for something very beautiful.. isnt that the jist of it?


you are a treasure, and for you i am slowly failing to live up... no?


too often i still do not know just what to do,
head spins and the world will not
body aches and it screams for more
abuse or denial or...
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something unsettling is under my skin tonight.

she is three thousand miles from me.
i cannot protect, i cannot remind. am i therefore doomed?
is it too late...?

my failing rational mind does it's best to keep hold on my worry.. but I have never not been betrayed.
..and my phone isn't ringing much..


T-minus and counting, till I am a ghost..

i am with the best girl ever tonight.
good for me.

I am considering doing something with these dreds. Maybe dying them black? Maybe ridding some of the jewelry? Perhaps a bit of a trim....

I have learned that there is a dredlock group on here....

so.. it has been so long since a human being has taken my heart...
i have for so long been trapped by heroin, locked away from you all.

all things of mine have suffered, my artwork, my finances, my sociability.
i thought my world to be unrecoverable.
even the sun itself had lost all glimmer...

in a way, it seemed that Heroin was the only...
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I so rarely make it over to SG these days. Ive got alot going on, some of it quite stressful.
Nevertheless, I am still out here, somewhere.

If you somehow believe that you are not on my mind and in my heart, that i do not wonder and worry for you... you are so deeply mistaken.