vampirestarcat

why are you in scotland? WHY!?

i really hate how much i like this girl right now. and just...girls in general. frustrating. like i wasn't exhausted enough already.

i got a 25 cent raise today and celebrated by buying a ps3. doesn't really cover the cost but my harry potter video game itch is finally being scratched.

ever feel like you don't understand fucking anything in the entire world?

like, anything. seriously. i don't get it and i don't know why at all. i'm entirely clueless.

work is hard and stuff. 48 hours a week is taking its toll. i just don't feel like i can ever have enough sleep.

i really don't have much to complain about. i'm making money and my job isn't awful at all. mostly i just have to smile at people i don't like and try to be helpful. i just feel like i can do...
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i went on the lackawanna coal mine tour for the first time since fifth grade today. at least if my hometown subsides into the mines, i got to pay 12 bucks to go down into one.

i also worked today. it was my manager's birthday. i gave him cotton candy flavored rock candy as a gift. i think that's a pretty sweet deal.

I've come to the conclusion that alien ant farm were an incredibly underrated band. I just rediscovered their album anthology and I've been digging it hardcore. I feel like I'm seventeen again in a totally unzefron kinda way.

soooo new job is kind of kicking my ass. i just have to get back into the swing of things, and the fact that my boss doesn't know what he's doing and likes to blame me for it doesn't so much help my confidence.

in other news -- my sister's wedding is next weekend. friday is the bachelorette party at the gay bar. i'll be...
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new job. tomorrow's my second day training, thursday is my first day working alone. seems fast? yes. yes it does.

tomorrow is going to be a weird day. seeing some old friends i haven't hung out with in almost two years.

watching hedwig and the angry inch, drinking lion's head -- the cheapest beer in the history of beers, and having an overall not shitty night. awesome.

i think i've lost the ability to sleep. or like, i have my nights and days mixed up. it's after 7 and i'm still just sitting in bed with my laptop waiting for that tired thing to kick in and knock me out. no luck thus far, obviously.

i got to drink fancy beer with friends and jam for a bit last night or like,...
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i hate feeling like it's not getting better. nights like this just make parts of me ache that i forgot i had. i can't decide if it's her i can't live without or i just can't live with being this lonely. either way, i'm at a standstill. i'm not sure what would make it better. eight months is a long time to be unsure, and...
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realizing i was eighteen when i got an account here. five years ago. and most of my pictures are that old too. creepy.

Here's this.

my friend chelsea's band, a fire with friends. i like them, they're super cool folks and impressive musicians.