a multi part update for your viewing pleasure;
School
school is ok, I had managed to forget how mundane entry level classes are, as well as how they seem to be populated with relative morons. granted, I'm in my third year, and should technically be a junior at this point, and have yet to aquire sophomore standing, but I'm not fuckin dumb, just unmotivated and had a lil undiagnosed medical issue for awhile. these people are dumb. I'll provide examples if you really want me to, but its a painful process. class by class
Western Civ to 1500;
well populated with aforementioned idiots, knowledge of "mesoptamia" seems to escape them all. birthplace of civilization? the fertile crescent? no idea? and you're a history major? fuck. ok.
World History to 1500
same as wester civ, but more focus on middle/eastern cultures. populated with 2/3 freshman and 80% fuck ups looking for a humanities gen ed
Foundations of Business theory
a retake, I managed a D+ by attending class maybe 4 times, failing the midterm, and cramming for 6 hours straight for the final. populated by extremely ethnocentric/provincial morons, but these ones can be easily put in their place. the prof kicks ass, so it'll probably be ok.
Intro to Creative Writing
its creative writing, what did I expect? a hippy dippy teacher (i'm not big on the hippies, and i'm less big on writing about "my feelings") its going to be a long ass class, but i kick ass at writing, so I'll do pretty well.
in conclusion, this will not be a hard semester. tedious, dull, monotonous, all yes, but hard? not even close. I just have to maintain focus enough to pull good grades.
The girl;
pretty much the reason for me updating, we had coffee tonight, like we do on occasion, I was parked half a block from the coffee shop, and she was around back in the "scary dark" parking lot behind her place of employment. she (understandably, after seeing the lot) didn't want to walk back there, so I drove her around back, we said goodbye and hugged, and then she starts kissing me. confusing as all hell, but fuck it, I'm gonna run with it this time. go with the flow, like I do with everything else in life. Its tricky though, because although I give the appearance and general feeling of going with said flow, its because 1) I genuinely don't have an opinion about whats going on, and 2) if I did have an opinion, it would most likely be done my way. this isn't some weird control thing, its just how shit happens. so i'm breaking out of my shell and going with the flow.
Smoking;
I was doing great, hadn't bought a pack in about a month and a half, went back to school, and discovered that it is almost impossible for me to sit through a lecture without that as an aid. it doesn't help that I have primarily 90 minute classes, with one three hour class, and only one class thats 60 minutes. so i'm back smoking, but only before class, and during the class break in the 3 hour one.
Random observation of behavior;
I discovered that it is quit uncomfortable for me to sit anywhere but the back row of a class. I always attributed this to the fact that I was kind of a slacker, and proximity to the teacher wasn't quite was I wa going for, but in truth, its because it makes me nervous to have people behind me. I'm one of those people that sits in the corner facing out at restaurants and whatnot, but it never seemed to extend into completely safe places like classrooms. but it does, so now I have to get to class early and sit among the slackers so I don't get all twitchy and weird.
I think thats about it, this is the first proper update I've done in a long time, hope you all enjoyed it
School
school is ok, I had managed to forget how mundane entry level classes are, as well as how they seem to be populated with relative morons. granted, I'm in my third year, and should technically be a junior at this point, and have yet to aquire sophomore standing, but I'm not fuckin dumb, just unmotivated and had a lil undiagnosed medical issue for awhile. these people are dumb. I'll provide examples if you really want me to, but its a painful process. class by class
Western Civ to 1500;
well populated with aforementioned idiots, knowledge of "mesoptamia" seems to escape them all. birthplace of civilization? the fertile crescent? no idea? and you're a history major? fuck. ok.
World History to 1500
same as wester civ, but more focus on middle/eastern cultures. populated with 2/3 freshman and 80% fuck ups looking for a humanities gen ed
Foundations of Business theory
a retake, I managed a D+ by attending class maybe 4 times, failing the midterm, and cramming for 6 hours straight for the final. populated by extremely ethnocentric/provincial morons, but these ones can be easily put in their place. the prof kicks ass, so it'll probably be ok.
Intro to Creative Writing
its creative writing, what did I expect? a hippy dippy teacher (i'm not big on the hippies, and i'm less big on writing about "my feelings") its going to be a long ass class, but i kick ass at writing, so I'll do pretty well.
in conclusion, this will not be a hard semester. tedious, dull, monotonous, all yes, but hard? not even close. I just have to maintain focus enough to pull good grades.
The girl;
pretty much the reason for me updating, we had coffee tonight, like we do on occasion, I was parked half a block from the coffee shop, and she was around back in the "scary dark" parking lot behind her place of employment. she (understandably, after seeing the lot) didn't want to walk back there, so I drove her around back, we said goodbye and hugged, and then she starts kissing me. confusing as all hell, but fuck it, I'm gonna run with it this time. go with the flow, like I do with everything else in life. Its tricky though, because although I give the appearance and general feeling of going with said flow, its because 1) I genuinely don't have an opinion about whats going on, and 2) if I did have an opinion, it would most likely be done my way. this isn't some weird control thing, its just how shit happens. so i'm breaking out of my shell and going with the flow.
Smoking;
I was doing great, hadn't bought a pack in about a month and a half, went back to school, and discovered that it is almost impossible for me to sit through a lecture without that as an aid. it doesn't help that I have primarily 90 minute classes, with one three hour class, and only one class thats 60 minutes. so i'm back smoking, but only before class, and during the class break in the 3 hour one.
Random observation of behavior;
I discovered that it is quit uncomfortable for me to sit anywhere but the back row of a class. I always attributed this to the fact that I was kind of a slacker, and proximity to the teacher wasn't quite was I wa going for, but in truth, its because it makes me nervous to have people behind me. I'm one of those people that sits in the corner facing out at restaurants and whatnot, but it never seemed to extend into completely safe places like classrooms. but it does, so now I have to get to class early and sit among the slackers so I don't get all twitchy and weird.
I think thats about it, this is the first proper update I've done in a long time, hope you all enjoyed it
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for the first time I knew what it felt to be like you.
p.s. I'm thinking of removing my plugs. I miss my huge ass diamond studs. unless you're gonna tell me that they make high end diamond plugs or something. (do they??? I'd be so excited if they did. maybe I'll ask in the piercing group.)