Oh my God, you are SO right. I had been feeling for a few months that things were not right and neither of us was happy. I'm the one that broke it off, and believe me, it was not easy. I hate it when people assume that if you are the one who initiates the break up, then you just do it with a cold heart and then you are all happy and shit. NOT! But I truly believe it is for the best, and I hope in time he realizes that too. It was so hard to know that I was really hurting someone I care about.
But since yesterday I'm starting to feel like a huge weight has been lifted from me and I'm starting to feel more like my old self. I know I'll have plenty of lonely moments when I miss him, but I think I've turned a corner.
Yeah, I've always had a fantasy about moving to a foreign country. I almost moved to Holland to teach English, but in the end I chickened out. It was all too uncertain and I was terrified of giving everything up for nothing. What a chicken shit, eh?
But since yesterday I'm starting to feel like a huge weight has been lifted from me and I'm starting to feel more like my old self. I know I'll have plenty of lonely moments when I miss him, but I think I've turned a corner.
Sorry to hear you are sick.