well, lets see....
hung out with my timmy... which was "FUCKIN AWESOME!" the hung out with jen and nicole... which was cool cuz i havent seen em in forever.. but im sure i was borring.. kinsidering i havent slept much.
ummm.. im almost positive that danny is going to leave the appt. as soon as the lease ends, which is sad.. cuz hes an awesome guy... one of the only that i dont wanna kill on a constant basis... only sometimes. its really sad.. cuz i could really see danny being a good friend of mine if it werent for the one thing... becky (who i have pinky promised to be nice too). and if you know anything about me.. u know that a pinky promise is big for me... its somethin only my best friends and i do...(jen & tim)
i am really upset at how things are going...im not mad... but disappointed... i really hoped to form some really deep friendships with some of theese guys... and some i have...
jared danny and logan are all best friends...and their important to me
tyler and i butt heads but we have a good undertstanding for eachother and we joke around alot...
kevin and i never really clicked a whole lot.. but thats not because i dont like him.. hes cool, just into some really different life styles.
if you all havent noticed.. i dont really get along with chix... i try.. but most are far to bitchy and moody... i have enough attitude to cover the estrogen side of our friends lol
i like brandi and jess... and jess and i really had some close times.. shes special to me
alycia and i had some bumps in our path.. but i gave her another chance...
jen has been around for ever... nicole was my best friend from school...
and i have tons of guy friends...
becky.. i gave her 2 chances.. and she screwed them both up.. im gonna try agian for the sake of the apartment and to make things easier on danny.
i know its been hard on him lately... and if you walk into his room you can feelk his confusion and frustration dampening the air into a smothering void...
so.. im goin to try to make it easier. im going to be nice to her... even if it kills me.
some times i wish danny would get a myspace account so he could just sit down and read how we feel... that way we wouldnt be breathing down his neck constantly... i hate playing mom.. and being the bad guy... i care for these boys like their all my kids or somethin.. their family to me. they just dont realize it... and we're falling apart.
i meen.. it may not seem like it... but this all is hurting me...i try to be strong but over do it....but its all or not. i miss seeing danny.. and makin him breakfast just like i did for the guys b4.. i miss being able to wake every one up with choclate chip pancakes or cheesey eggs and bacon. i miss hanging out with them...
i know i'vew always been the odd man out because i havent BEEN THERE for all the yrs that they speak of... but ive tried to matter some..
i just dont think my efforts matter any more...
i couldnty get jared or logan their licences.. or be friends with them the way i should...
its like im never good enough for anyone.. i feel like they look down their noses at me...especially danny lately.. but i know he has her influencing him so i understand that. i dunno.. im gettin emo about all this shit so.. different topic.
as for things to come.. jared is trunin 21... im broke cuz of it...
i also wanted to invite all his friends over on that tuesday.jess, tyler, jeef, brandi and kevin... every 1... i know he wants to see every one.. but i also know some of them will chose not to show.. for lake of party materials... booze and pot (considering we dont allow pot around here)
hung out with my timmy... which was "FUCKIN AWESOME!" the hung out with jen and nicole... which was cool cuz i havent seen em in forever.. but im sure i was borring.. kinsidering i havent slept much.
ummm.. im almost positive that danny is going to leave the appt. as soon as the lease ends, which is sad.. cuz hes an awesome guy... one of the only that i dont wanna kill on a constant basis... only sometimes. its really sad.. cuz i could really see danny being a good friend of mine if it werent for the one thing... becky (who i have pinky promised to be nice too). and if you know anything about me.. u know that a pinky promise is big for me... its somethin only my best friends and i do...(jen & tim)
i am really upset at how things are going...im not mad... but disappointed... i really hoped to form some really deep friendships with some of theese guys... and some i have...
jared danny and logan are all best friends...and their important to me
tyler and i butt heads but we have a good undertstanding for eachother and we joke around alot...
kevin and i never really clicked a whole lot.. but thats not because i dont like him.. hes cool, just into some really different life styles.
if you all havent noticed.. i dont really get along with chix... i try.. but most are far to bitchy and moody... i have enough attitude to cover the estrogen side of our friends lol
i like brandi and jess... and jess and i really had some close times.. shes special to me
alycia and i had some bumps in our path.. but i gave her another chance...
jen has been around for ever... nicole was my best friend from school...
and i have tons of guy friends...
becky.. i gave her 2 chances.. and she screwed them both up.. im gonna try agian for the sake of the apartment and to make things easier on danny.
i know its been hard on him lately... and if you walk into his room you can feelk his confusion and frustration dampening the air into a smothering void...
so.. im goin to try to make it easier. im going to be nice to her... even if it kills me.
some times i wish danny would get a myspace account so he could just sit down and read how we feel... that way we wouldnt be breathing down his neck constantly... i hate playing mom.. and being the bad guy... i care for these boys like their all my kids or somethin.. their family to me. they just dont realize it... and we're falling apart.
i meen.. it may not seem like it... but this all is hurting me...i try to be strong but over do it....but its all or not. i miss seeing danny.. and makin him breakfast just like i did for the guys b4.. i miss being able to wake every one up with choclate chip pancakes or cheesey eggs and bacon. i miss hanging out with them...
i know i'vew always been the odd man out because i havent BEEN THERE for all the yrs that they speak of... but ive tried to matter some..
i just dont think my efforts matter any more...
i couldnty get jared or logan their licences.. or be friends with them the way i should...
its like im never good enough for anyone.. i feel like they look down their noses at me...especially danny lately.. but i know he has her influencing him so i understand that. i dunno.. im gettin emo about all this shit so.. different topic.
as for things to come.. jared is trunin 21... im broke cuz of it...
i also wanted to invite all his friends over on that tuesday.jess, tyler, jeef, brandi and kevin... every 1... i know he wants to see every one.. but i also know some of them will chose not to show.. for lake of party materials... booze and pot (considering we dont allow pot around here)
What kind of different life styles does that guy have from you?
I get along with girls better then I do with guys.
He should get an SG account, its so much better then my space.
Why cant you wake every one up with food anymore?
What makes you think you dont matter?
Well I dont talk to anyone I grew up with any more so if we were friends you would matter just as much as all the rest of my friends.
Well I hope they come to the party, do you allow beer at your place.
Im going to email you about my party.
Every one needs a mother figure in their life, even if they dont know it.
Yes e-friends do count; I hope we become good e-friends.
I like tequila.