ok, so lied. i didn't update monday. i was bad. somebody smack me.
i haven't been home much or in the mood to really sit and type anything. this happens every so often... i go on an internet strike. refuse to answer emails, update journals, turn on the computer...
i'm glad that it's warmer and the rain has sort of given way to better weather,...
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i haven't been home much or in the mood to really sit and type anything. this happens every so often... i go on an internet strike. refuse to answer emails, update journals, turn on the computer...
i'm glad that it's warmer and the rain has sort of given way to better weather,...
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disappearing again for the weekend. i've been a busy girl lately which makes me happy 
beats sitting around at home for sure!
i promise monday i'll write a real entry!
beats sitting around at home for sure!
i promise monday i'll write a real entry!
daysofmetal:
im always busy too lol. thats funny what u said about the 12 step program. earlier today someone told me to go to vice city annonomous or however its spelled lol.
captain_deez:
where you is?
i will update this soon. i just got back home after spending the last five days at Brian's house. it was his birthday. fun times. now i have to catch up on everything i've missed!
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devilztemptrss:
Well, I think it's actually starting to brighten up! Supposed to be 80 today. I can only wish 
You are just so sweet, you always help me hold my head up higher about things. I'm deffinitely going to shut everyone up by making something of myself. When I have the money I'll have it by August. I would love for things to happen right now but everything takes time and hard work.
Life is always so quick to suck but when you want to get back on track it takes SOO long. The two of us will get to where we want to be, it will take some time but it will be worth it in the end of it all.
Tanning is soo much fun! Now I know what it's like to be a piece of bread in a toaster
Hope everything else is going well with you!
~* hugs & kisses *~
You are just so sweet, you always help me hold my head up higher about things. I'm deffinitely going to shut everyone up by making something of myself. When I have the money
I'll have it by August. I would love for things to happen right now but everything takes time and hard work.
Life is always so quick to suck but when you want to get back on track it takes SOO long. The two of us will get to where we want to be, it will take some time but it will be worth it in the end of it all.
Tanning is soo much fun! Now I know what it's like to be a piece of bread in a toaster
Hope everything else is going well with you!
~* hugs & kisses *~
linz:
happy happy birthday baby.
Rain, rain go away.
Come again another day.
Little Jessica wants to play.
Rain, rain go away.
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Come again another day.
Little Jessica wants to play.
Rain, rain go away.
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devilztemptrss:
I have an appointment today in the city to look at a school! So I'm getting there I really want to go back now. I wasn't ready the three other times I tried. I didn't know what I wanted to do with myself and I just wasnt emotionally ready. I've been through alot of shit in the past three years. I needed to collect myself and just take some time for me. But now I know what I want to do! So hopefully it will all work out
Buying a car deffinitely sucks. Why can't I put a quater in a machine and get one. I have no money what so ever. That's another reason why I need a job. You should move here and we'll split all the expenses.
Things have brightened up alot in the past week. And Baby's been really good with being there for me. I'm starting to feel better, so I guess the med's are finally working. It's not too often that I feel content with my life. And everything has been great for the past few days.
I'm deffinitely going to get my pics up here. I have to do it the same way as you so dont worry. That adds to the laziness too. Sooo much effort
I hope everything is good with you and that you're feeling better too. Hope to talk to you soon!
~* hugs & kisses *~
I really want to go back now. I wasn't ready the three other times I tried. I didn't know what I wanted to do with myself and I just wasnt emotionally ready. I've been through alot of shit in the past three years. I needed to collect myself and just take some time for me. But now I know what I want to do! So hopefully it will all work out
Buying a car deffinitely sucks. Why can't I put a quater in a machine and get one. I have no money what so ever. That's another reason why I need a job. You should move here and we'll split all the expenses.
Things have brightened up alot in the past week. And Baby's been really good with being there for me. I'm starting to feel better, so I guess the med's are finally working. It's not too often that I feel content with my life. And everything has been great for the past few days.
I'm deffinitely going to get my pics up here. I have to do it the same way as you so dont worry. That adds to the laziness too. Sooo much effort
I hope everything is good with you and that you're feeling better too. Hope to talk to you soon!
~* hugs & kisses *~
thursday:
the rain SUCKS, especially since i have to wear my glasses right now.
this is specifically why i got contacts...
this is specifically why i got contacts...
i am sick again (yes, AGAIN!). i'm sure you're not surprised.
i woke up monday with pink eye. eye puss is gross.
i spent three nights in row falling alseep in brian's arms. i wish i could do that every night.
i only work one day next week. ::happy dance::
my computer is still broken.
this month i am approximately $500 in debt. damn bills....
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i woke up monday with pink eye. eye puss is gross.
i spent three nights in row falling alseep in brian's arms. i wish i could do that every night.
i only work one day next week. ::happy dance::
my computer is still broken.
this month i am approximately $500 in debt. damn bills....
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azura:
its a secret but trust me its awesome
give him a gift certificate to somewhere... guys usually love gift certificates!
give him a gift certificate to somewhere... guys usually love gift certificates!
dolorian:
aw.... i hope you feel better, sweetie.
xoxo
xoxo
so i woke up this morning and attempted to turn on my computer and nothing happened. thought maybe a plug was loose. no. electrical outlet shot? no. turns out either my power supply or my fan is dead. perfect. just exactly what i can't afford. computer repairs. then to top it off i have a damn HP. HP's are basically constructed so that you can't...
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cherryb0mb:
sorry about the computer problems! 
i have an HP too, but fortuneately have not experienced any major problems in the past (almost) 4 years. good luck!
i have an HP too, but fortuneately have not experienced any major problems in the past (almost) 4 years. good luck! 
rxqueen:
ack! i had the same thing happen to me. Cept the power supply + fan decided to go while i was using the computer. this lead to loud exploding noises (like fire crackers) and then blue sparks flew out of the back of the machine. i had a HP also. And because they're bitches, the power supply/fan is smaller than average size so we had to order it. it was on back order 
so we finally get the stupid thing, put it in and the green light goes on but nothing else did.
so its been at my uncles house for about 2 months, with my newly purchased jackass:the movie dvd stuck inside. and im stuck on a computer slower than evolution.
let me know how yours turns out.
i could use some hope.
so we finally get the stupid thing, put it in and the green light goes on but nothing else did.
so its been at my uncles house for about 2 months, with my newly purchased jackass:the movie dvd stuck inside. and im stuck on a computer slower than evolution.
let me know how yours turns out.
i could use some hope.
interesting past couple of days. met the kid from australia and actually thought he was pretty cool. speaking of australia... i've been dying to go there since high school. that is my dream destination, i wish i had money for a cool vacation like that. though, i wouldn't go now since our seasons are opposite and it is currently winter there. i'm already suffering from...
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cobalt:
YEA for NJ!! And good luck with this fella thing!
alexis:
How long have you been dating? I think the only reason that he hasn't showed you his house is because he really likes you and he's embarassed by it (even though he shouldn't be). I'm happy you've found someone that you're into.
the feelings of jealousy over the "new friend" have subsided somewhat and i seem to have returned to normal... well as normal as i can get. thanks to everyone who let me know that yes, it is ok to occassionally let sillyness overcome me and get jealous as long as it's not in a rabbit boiling "fatal attraction" kinda way. jealousy is a perfectly normal...
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ninji:
hee! well, thanks for the update and your courageous spirit in being honest (most importantly w/yourself)
well, thanks for the update and your courageous spirit in being honest (most importantly w/yourself)
captain_deez:
One weekend when you and your boyfriend don't have any plans we should get together do some fun stuff or something. there's got to be something fun to do somewhere in this state, right?
so i'm having these weird feelings of jealousy and i'm not even quite sure why. it's silly really. i'm jealous over brian's new friendship. oh boy, this is gonna make me sound really lame, but i need to vent...
so, my boyfriend needed a singer for his band. i sent out an email to my "contacts" and posted on various websites i know. some kid...
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so, my boyfriend needed a singer for his band. i sent out an email to my "contacts" and posted on various websites i know. some kid...
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gotham2:
awwww...it's not unusual or bad that you feel jealous. sometimes it's okay to be silly and girly and huffy over boys. i do it all the time. i hope that it passes quickly, which i'm sure it will.
but you've not been to your boyfriend's house? is he hiding dead bodies over there or something?
ps. you've great taste in girls.
but you've not been to your boyfriend's house? is he hiding dead bodies over there or something?
ps. you've great taste in girls.
ninji:
yes, darlin'. be gentle with yourself. way, way gentle.
Kayla and Chris (aka Kaylaeine). You guys are missing from SG! Where are you! You left me such a nice message and then you disappeared and I have no idea how to contact you. One of you
guys email me!
CutYourHeartOut@aol.com
BleedingMindsDotCom
guys email me!
CutYourHeartOut@aol.com
BleedingMindsDotCom
captain_deez:
It looks like they got kicked for sharing.
last night was awesome. went to Point Pleasant and played arcade games at the boardwalk, got tackled in the sand and ate funnel cake. now if only the weather would be nice and stay at a nice constant WARM temperature I could do stuff like that more often instead of being confined to malls and indoor activities. not that all indoor activities are bad
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zenosdog:
wow...good old point pleasant. i grew up in the next town over. bakedgoods, you're so right...sleazeside is bigger, but so fuckin nasty. my grandmother still lives in asbury park, so i still go down in the summer. maybe i'll see you down there one day and kick your ass at skeeball.
jurasic:
not feeling well...
Even though I'm still endlessly tired and have a headache that won't seem to go away, I feel a lot better than I did a few days ago. However if one more person asks me if I think I have SARS, I just might punch them.
I may have to go back on Paxil. I'm not too excited about that. It's amazing how something that...
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jurasic:
Nah...but if I got some cool clothes or money bc of it that would be great...
porkroll:
i think you should definately leave bordentown(boredomtown as i like to call it) and move to the big city. nyc. never a dull moment and art aplenty.
also, you may wanna consider wellbutrin over paxil. you sound depressed to me. wellbutrin is known for very mild side effects, but it takes care of the pitfalls of depression, such as the lack of motivation you seem to be experiencing. paxil seems to be more effective with anxiety, depression being benefitted from the complete mindfuck that drug does to your seratonin levels.
good luck with that and take care...
also, you may wanna consider wellbutrin over paxil. you sound depressed to me. wellbutrin is known for very mild side effects, but it takes care of the pitfalls of depression, such as the lack of motivation you seem to be experiencing. paxil seems to be more effective with anxiety, depression being benefitted from the complete mindfuck that drug does to your seratonin levels.
good luck with that and take care...
I checked out yer homepage... But it doesn't really work... Maybe I don't know enough about computers to understand it, but I just thought I'd let you know...
My website is:
http://www.livejournal.com/users/dr_toxic/
You should check it out and tell me what you think of it...
dollars. los benjamins. cashola. (sigh)
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