So apparently, supressing my emotions temporarily is not ok either. First he complains about how blunt I am when I'm upset, now, when he wants to know what's wrong, (because I know I'll blow up on him) I say I don't want to talk about it...and he STILL gets pissed off. I can't fucking win with anyone.
There's so much I've been waiting to say for my whole life, but I just can't. I don't know why? Why is it the things we need to get out, to relieve so much of the way we are, just can't come out. It's so simple. Just speak. But we can't? Why? What are we afraid of? If I knew, I'd tell you...but obviously I... Read More
When I was a little kid, I liked getting the really bad sun burns; Id sort of make a game of peeling of my skin, it felt sort of symbolic, like I was becoming a new person.
Maybe a slightly damp, soft towel laid on the burnt parts, just to cool them down a bit?
I'm not fucking around here, this really works. Take 10 tablets of aspirin and crush them into a fine powder. Now take a cup of water and heat it up a little in the microwave. Dissolve the apirin dust in the water. Now take a few ice cubes and cool your aspirin water down. Now start rubbing it all over your burnt areas. It will dull the pain slightly. It's even better if you follow up with anotherlittle rub and then some lotion.
But no tanning for you. You are so gorgeous and your skin is lovely. If you ruin it I will be mad at you forever!
I have a new spooning buddy. It's awesome. I spent the night at his house and we cuddeled for 8 hours straight. This morning got really heated, in terms of sexual tension, but I didn't budge, because I wasn't there to have sex, I was there to cuddle. And I stood firm in what I told myself I'd do...and that is really good.
the show was great! they played a two hour set, and the new guy is incredible on guitar/bass. wow. im in awe. drank too much last night tho. cause im hungover. boooooo.
I think I'm going to skank it out with my rolling stones cleavage yeilding halter top. and some jeans. or leg warmers? I finally found black ones, and I'm in-love!!!
As for other stuff. Whatever.
I think I want to major in philosophy. This might be hard, considering my emotional state. Who knows. '
My life blows, just for this weekend though. It'll be back to normal in a few days as soon as I'm out of this fucking house, away from these fucking animals.
I guess I am going to make it thru the weekend alright. I am up again at 6, this has got to stop. I am off to the office to get some work done before the show.