tattoohotdolly

trying to live with someone for the first time is becoming very exauhsting...really! i love him, more than he will ever know im sure...but he is sooooo stuborn and so stuck in his way its almost like he has no room for me. he does things his way, always has, so when i come into his world i dont fit. or at least hes resiting...
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well i grad from school in sept/oct. and i just realized how much i hate what im goin for...so that sucks. i knew i should have just done the cosmotology thing, but thought that a grown up tiltle would make me feel just that. it doesnt!
i recently bargined with nate to let me move in. so that will be interesting to say the least,...
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the single most difficult thing ive ever said (or didnt say in this case)

im such an idoit! ok ok i just told a boy that ive been seein for six months i loved him. well the words never came out but he guessed what i was so upset about. you see we where makin love and i was a little drunk. i looked at...
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7 months later....and seeing him makes me miss nate ..... it sounds wierd i know but the ex..tom...makes me want to be near nate. i miss him, hell be leavin here in a few day too *sad face*
if i could really tell nate how badly im gonna miss him i would, no words (korny i know) but with an impending interigation (if he reads...
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went to night moves and met ron jeremy, haha looks exactly like he does on film, short fat hairy but still had a little somethin that made me wanna do him! he went on stage, threw out a couple cheesy jokes hes told a thousand times, then i went to the back got a few things signed by him and got a pic with him....
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i hate to think about the past. i hate to think about the future. both make me ill. some things deep, while others are trivial. i stress, it consumes me. i laugh, it revives me. only to be stuck in this ongoing, seemingly endless spiral of anger, shame, quilt, happiness, excitment, pleasure, my god. its like someone askeds you whats wrong, and you open your...
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i dont feel good...

wow, i was an extremly drunk, naughty nurse last night at a halloween party/show. there were 4 metal bands, and they rocked. actually i only know that slore rocked because i was to interested in beer and a hot bunny that i dyked out with to pay any attention to the others. nate had the best costume in the whole world. he was a cuntry...
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ok ok i know im drunk, but i want some ass damn it! somebody betta give me some soon or im gonna go and get it myslef and unfortunatly my judgment could possibly be slitly impaired and i would rather a guy...or girl...yah i said it..of sound mind not drunk on pbr and liquid changes to take me and give me plaesure...now!@

vent.....

what is this??? everytime someone talks to me about me they only tell me what im doing wrong! i need to do this, i need to stop doing that, fuck it, all of it damn you! im a great girl, im cute, im friendly, kinda shy (not a bad thing damn it), sweet disposition, not a bad lay at all, i have manors, i...
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i just woke up in a very bad mood. i had a horrible dream and would share it but im afriad if i do it will come true. i have this thing about bad luck, karma et that can be quite a vice for me if taken seriously, and today im taking it up a notch. the dream mad me sad but ultimatly very angry,...
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