starkofdoom

So two things I wish to ruminate upon,

First is how much I hate how bands only put their new stuff for streaming on their site. I think it sucks because you can listen to something, not like it and never listen to that band again. I am peeved at this because I recently got into Rilo Kiley, however this is the second time I...
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So I am currently in love with Rilo Kileys music. I am gonna let my obsession with it play out and then maybe try to listen to Jenny Lewis's solo stuff.

Move is completed, new place isn't bad, it's a ways away from everything I am used to and I don't like learning a new area, but it's ok.

Life is kinda tough right now though. I am still going through bullshit with.... no I am not gonna call her my ex, we were in love with each other but only really together for about a...
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Well I am in the process of moving.... I thought it would be simple for me. However I find that I am having an extremely difficult time bringing myself to move my stuff to the new place.... I am making dumb excuses to postpone the process. I think it's because this room has been such a big part of my memories. I found love in...
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I went to a bar/club the other night, which isn't a normal activity for me. Ever since I have been doing E though I have been interested in dancing, and while I was there I was much more active in the booth I was sitting in, I wasn't stiff and I really got into the music, but I can't bring myself to dance. Hehe I...
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And the hits keep coming. We had to put down one of our family dogs, he was old, but not so old that he needed to be put down. He got in a fight with another dog and he got hurt to the point that we had to put him down because he wouldn't be able to take the surgery. Not to mention there is...
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Fuck being happy. Fuck smiling. Welcome back depression and pain. Goodbye hope and my future.

Bleh.... I wanna go get a tattoo but I don't know what to get anymore...

I feel like.... I don't know. I have my days where I am ok, and kinda happy. I mean everything that is fucked in my life is there, but I don't notice it so much. Then there are days like today though.... where I am fucking falling apart at the seams. The thing is though, days like today have a cumulative effect. Lowering my permanent...
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I Want to Know Your Plans,

by Say Anything


I want to know your plans
And how involved in them I am
When I go to sleep for good
Will I be forgiven?
And if you want roses, you can go buy a bouquet.
If that just won't cut it, well what can I say?

Youre what keeps me believing this worlds not gone dead...
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Huh, so Ashley got a hold of me today..... felt kinda weird. When someone you decided a month ago to not talk to ever again and hate gets a hold of you and apologizes of all things.... I don't know. She is moving to Virginia and I guess I realized that even though shit got fucked up between us I don't think it is worth...
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