So it has been a rough week, got my first wisdom tooth ever on tuesday. It is impacted and I was in severe pain for days couldn't eat practically anything. Then my dad was audited by the IRS and he hasn't been working because of surgery on his shoulder. I went to talk to a counselor at Texas State about enrolling and well he was a total downer telling me that I have been out of school for too long and that I should go to like a community college and try and transfer in next year. Then Thursday the unthinkable happened and I found my dog dead in front of the house. Totally out of the blue because the afternoon before she was fine and strong like she had always been (sucks talking in past tense). She was really energetic and then nothing. By the time I found her rigor mortise had already set in and she was totally motionless and stiff. It was a serious shock to my mind and spirit, I have had no way of recovery from it and I can't and won't replace her with another dog because she was irreplaceable. I don't know where to go from here and I have to go to fucking AA because my probation demands it. And as far as that goes it is just depressing and my whole god complex is a serious conflict with their methods. I want to just explode when they start with that stupid prayer shit. It's safe to say that the program is more of a bad thing for me than a good thing. And today it is a possible limit in my whole sad time. I haven't cried yet because it is too much and I know it will take a greater toll on me mentally and physically than anything but I am afraid of my destructive emotions and actions more than anything.
Well that is it for now,
I wish you all the best,
Signed and Firmado,
Joe
Well that is it for now,
I wish you all the best,
Signed and Firmado,
Joe
fabrizia:
Ouch.. i've never even had a cavity!
socxs:
Yeah it blows and I am hoping I can take care of it soon.