snakeplissken

I keep thinking about someone I shouldn't. But I'm starting to realize it's those thought patterns aren't genuine, but merely a symptom of lonely feelings in the now that bring old things long washed away to mind. In realizing that's the case I'm acknowledging that it's ok to think about the past, just not to stew on it or obsess with it. So I let...
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Another week down at the new job. Still getting stellar reviews and doing well. It's funny, but I never knew how much my anxiety had an effect on my job performance until it was gone. Before I wanted to do the bare minimum because I just was more concerned about leaving than anything. Get shit done and bail. Now I seem to have back my...
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Second week of the new job is in the bag. So far I've garnered excellent reviews from the boss and others. I passed my certification tests both written and physical with perfect scores. Basically I do chemistry tests to determine traits of incoming and in process natural oils; Free fatty acids and peroxide values primarily. Other tests include color, refractive index, melting point, and flavor....
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First week at the margarine mines is over. Training has been going well and the job is pretty easy overall. Sounds like my training is getting accelerated as I've made the impression that I'm not a dipshit. So that's nice. The next goal is to save up and get moved closer to work since gas is 4 bucks a gallon and commuting makes me want...
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Yesterday I went to the Occupational Medicine center and got a physical and had my balls handled by a strange lady. I also peed in a cup and got tested. Guess which made me more nervous?

Either way I passed all tests with flying colors and scored me a job in a margarine factory. Yep, I'm gonna smell like butter even more-so. Decent starting wages...
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No news so far on poppy. Gotta wait I guess.

Other than that I'm doing ok. Really ok. I think I'm starting to get the anxiety and depression cycles under control to the point where they seem to be fading away. I know this because shit has really been hitting the fan this last month or so and I'm taking it in stride. Previously I...
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Thanks to all for your concern. I'll elaborate on the situation a bit.

Dad and mom winter at the gulf coast every season. They were driving about when dad's vision blurred out and went to nothing. Mom is a nurse so she recognized it as a possible stroke and took him straight away to a drop in emergency clinic. They did some MRI scans and...
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Dad has a brain tumor. That's all I know.

Interview went well. Think I've pretty much got it in the bag. Pay isn't spectacular, but it's pay. Benefits, on the other hand, seem pretty great. We'll see if I get an offer.

I will drink no green pissy beer today. Not on my my watch. Ok, maybe five.

Second interview tomorrow! Woot!

The head HR gentleman said they were impressed during the first round and wanted to see me again. I knew it went fairly well; I wasn't nervous, I wasn't awkard, and I wasn't stuttering and fluttery like I can get. I didn't even get the pre-interview shakes and bubbleguts like I used to. I think those are all good symptoms of...
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So the job interview seemed to go fairly well. Basically all they make there is margarine, shortening, and such for large distribution. So it's a fairly small, but high volume facility. I would be a QA tech, but also involved with production, which is just fine with me. Also it's a 4 day, 10 hour shift situation which is pretty sweet. Plus no seasonal rush...
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