silencio

Damn, I've been taking lots of abuse lately. Just a few more months and all these idiots will be nothing more than a foggy memory.

Anxiety level rising due to holiday madness. I love it! It's too bad I don't get into the holiday spirit as much as everyone else. I'm more of a 'bah humbug' type person. Not this year. The reemergence of the snowflake lights cheered me up. If I had some money, I would have brought presents this year. Maybe next year. I tell people this and...
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i'm a werewolf

December. If I ever have kids, I'll name one of them December.

I'm trying to figure out what I'll be doing for New Year's Eve. Not sure. Downtown probably. Miller High Life's all night long. We'll see.

I got out of bed at 930am. Extremely early for me. Attempting to convert back into a day person. Living in 'Dark City' has grown wearisome for this boy. Ugh. My skin becomes extra sensitive if I don't get enough sleep. Hmmm...I wonder why that is?
I've been recording music on the 4track this past week. I start at 3am and play until 4am. Just...
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flanger. sleepy eyes. out of focus. smile. blue. gray. wet streets. dropped d. loop. wool. crooked glasses. suit and tie. record. shimmery. eternity. shake. sip. launch. down. small heart. fade. out.

mmmmmm bop!

This little phase of self destruction is officially over. Two months straight. I feel better now. It's kind of weird that I feel ok considering how much damage I did to myself a few nights ago. I won't go into details, but it was pretty bad. Nothing I haven't done before. It's just getting old. Not just partying, but the job, people, everything. I've been...
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Drinking a pint of Jack Daniels and going to the Vanilla Ice show is very tempting. But I shouldn't. I would most likley end up in jail or dead.

If you can't beat 'em, then join 'em.

i want a loft in the city and a big house way out in the woods.

the dream was about my version of heaven. big cities within walking distance. ocean and desert. a gigantic house. a stage is set up in the front yard. nice temps with no people around.

i think i may have figured out what i want do with my life. the...
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Here's the plan: I WANT to get evicted from my apartment. It's low income housing. So if you make over a certain amount of money, you can't live there. Today, I will ask the bosses if I can work six or seven days a week. This will surely put me over the limit. A re-check of my income will occur sometime in January. "Sorry, David....
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