I couldn't stay out of bed today, I was so tired and depressed. Sometime this afternoon I passed out and dreamt about (get this) going to visit someone, connecting with them and being close (like cuddling), and then the last day, before I left, being ignored and feeling lonely.
I woke up and on a hunch checked a forum I'm a member of, and sure...
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TCF on 56th and Nicollet:
9:42pm
192 degrees
Not kidding.
9:42pm
192 degrees
Not kidding.
whitewidow:
I'm back hun
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whitewidow:
lol - I don't have to worry about shoes or my BOOTS for that matter I just hope it stays warm enough to keep wearing my sandles
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I just hope it stays warm enough to keep wearing my sandles
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Still sick with...whatever it is this time.
The smallest things are reminding me of him. It's been 2 1/2 weeks and I'm still staying up late at night hoping I won't cry myself to sleep. It's not every night, but...I haven't felt this insanely alone in the world in a long time.
It is so hard for me to trust people, to open up, to...
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The smallest things are reminding me of him. It's been 2 1/2 weeks and I'm still staying up late at night hoping I won't cry myself to sleep. It's not every night, but...I haven't felt this insanely alone in the world in a long time.
It is so hard for me to trust people, to open up, to...
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I finally got out of bed at 3pm-ish to realize I was sick.
Suffering through a fever on my 21st birthday. Pretty messed up, and I don't know if it's a bad cold or the flu that's started going around.
Thank you to MR_rick, kiki_michelle, and Charlatan for leaving me happy birthday comments, and to kab2172 for emailing me a happy birthday.
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Suffering through a fever on my 21st birthday. Pretty messed up, and I don't know if it's a bad cold or the flu that's started going around.
Thank you to MR_rick, kiki_michelle, and Charlatan for leaving me happy birthday comments, and to kab2172 for emailing me a happy birthday.
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charlatan:
Pizza Luce is five blocks from my house. Don't believe everything you hear about the sun. Some of it is true.
You can take the girl out of the choir, but you can't take the choirgeek out of the girl. The Rent soundtrack is making me happy.
P.S. I demand cake. Cake and rum.
there's only us / there's only this / forget regret or life is yours to miss / no other road / no other way / no day but today
P.S. I demand cake. Cake and rum.
there's only us / there's only this / forget regret or life is yours to miss / no other road / no other way / no day but today
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kiki_michelle:
Happy 21st Birthday!
charlatan:
I can provide plenty of rum...nut I'm not much of a baker.
Oh, and happy birthday.
[Edited on Oct 02, 2005 7:05PM]
Oh, and happy birthday.
[Edited on Oct 02, 2005 7:05PM]
It's not like that. It never was and never will be.
And now you've probably lost him for good.
Harsh reality is sinking in. I hate it. The part of me I've been working so hard to shut up is getting louder, telling me to pull away, telling me to put the walls back up, telling me to feel...betrayed.
Opening up hurts. It's ugly and...
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And now you've probably lost him for good.
Harsh reality is sinking in. I hate it. The part of me I've been working so hard to shut up is getting louder, telling me to pull away, telling me to put the walls back up, telling me to feel...betrayed.
Opening up hurts. It's ugly and...
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I'm not noticing any chest pain now, and I'm even taking in deep breaths trying to be sure it's gone.
So yeah, gone.
I want to replace my Shuffle with a Nano. Getting close to running low on space already (I did get the gig) and my sister will take my Shuffle for $70 (she'll owe me the money). But justifying a $230 charge to...
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So yeah, gone.
I want to replace my Shuffle with a Nano. Getting close to running low on space already (I did get the gig) and my sister will take my Shuffle for $70 (she'll owe me the money). But justifying a $230 charge to...
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Emotionally: stable. Partially because I try to keep myself destracted.
Physically: if I go to the doctor one more time they're gonna call me a hypochondriac. But my coughing has moved out of the way for chest pain. Two days of chest pain. Especially when I breathe.
I was bored at work, so I hid in one of the stockrooms for a few minutes and...
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Physically: if I go to the doctor one more time they're gonna call me a hypochondriac. But my coughing has moved out of the way for chest pain. Two days of chest pain. Especially when I breathe.
I was bored at work, so I hid in one of the stockrooms for a few minutes and...
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whitewidow:
Awww- I hope you feel better soon
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whitewidow:
lol - it is sad that the only loving I get is from a rodent lol
"This sucks" would be such a complete understatement.
So far my coping mechanisms are...okay. When things like this happen I revert back to suicidal thoughts, as much as I hate it (and admitting that's what I do makes me feel like some sort of attention whore/drama queen/loser), and I've already thought about my birthday a couple times this week (how sad is that, thinking about...
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So far my coping mechanisms are...okay. When things like this happen I revert back to suicidal thoughts, as much as I hate it (and admitting that's what I do makes me feel like some sort of attention whore/drama queen/loser), and I've already thought about my birthday a couple times this week (how sad is that, thinking about...
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I haven't been around in a little while; sorry about that.
Last week and a half I've been sick with...something. It was acting way too much like that bronchial pneumonia from senior year, so I went to the doctor (again, geez, I might as well go live there) when it wasn't getting better after a week of waiting. Anywho, I just finished day 3 of...
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Last week and a half I've been sick with...something. It was acting way too much like that bronchial pneumonia from senior year, so I went to the doctor (again, geez, I might as well go live there) when it wasn't getting better after a week of waiting. Anywho, I just finished day 3 of...
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whitewidow:
Being sick sucks ass
I'll kick your flus ass too if you want
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I'll kick your flus ass too if you want
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t7:
Lets not forget where I work, the idea of men jacking off the things, doesnt really disturb me, its when they return the videos and their still sorta warm and wet that I find dsiturbing.
jackcrowder:
Tricks Jacks discovered to make things go faster when youre doing bloodwork:
If youre in a looby, waiting:
You have the cure of every disease in your blood. Every face around? They have said disease. And theyre going forcing you to be in pain. Glare at them. They are the enemy.
If youre in the office:
The needle is a dragonfly and its symbiotically bonding to your arm. Once fashioned, you will have a spiffy dragonfly arm-a-thing.
I have thousands of these.
If youre in a looby, waiting:
You have the cure of every disease in your blood. Every face around? They have said disease. And theyre going forcing you to be in pain. Glare at them. They are the enemy.
If youre in the office:
The needle is a dragonfly and its symbiotically bonding to your arm. Once fashioned, you will have a spiffy dragonfly arm-a-thing.
I have thousands of these.
I'm alive and more or less well. Come to the conclusion that I think my meds will be upped because there's no reason why I should be tired as heck after 8 hours of sleep. My fingers are still tingly - ring finger is off and on, but the pinky is 24/7 and worse than the ringer finger. And I'm back to working full time,...
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whitewidow:
Hmmm - I was going to get my hamster one of those balls but after hearing your story, I think I'll wait 
I hope you feel better soon hun
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I hope you feel better soon hun
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