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So i was getting some boxes taken care of in my new place and finally getting my living room cleaned up when out of nowhere, by back seizes up on me. This all actually started on the weekend so I couldn't just take a jaunt down to see my chiropractor, soooo instead, i had to wait until today to find out that I am supposed...
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tovi:
thank you!
Being cheated on sux, especially when they call you on your b-day to chat because they got sent home by the guy their cheating with because His gf wants to stay the night.
pandie:
Hello new friend 
shaddess:
Hello much prettier new friend.
Well it is starting to feel like winter here in the north state. Temperatures are finally getting to around freezing at nights which means snow will be here in a month or so.
Might have a lead on a solid apartment in Beautiful Nevada City as well.
Also, earned an A on both my math and geology mid-term. History and English come tomorrow so here's...
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Might have a lead on a solid apartment in Beautiful Nevada City as well.
Also, earned an A on both my math and geology mid-term. History and English come tomorrow so here's...
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So its raining like crazy at the house. Well, soon to be someone else house I suppose. Just need to find a place in the next 2 weeks to get things moving.
OM F G, being hunted is freakin awesome!
The things a single guy will do to protect his cats!
I was hunted by several coyotes, it was epic.
But, its all good. i saved my little down syndrome cat and the coyote's lose another night.
The things a single guy will do to protect his cats!
I was hunted by several coyotes, it was epic.
But, its all good. i saved my little down syndrome cat and the coyote's lose another night.
I find it amazing how easily one can make friends over the course of a single night of drinking. I sometimes wish I had to same outlook and personality while sober that I do while drunk. I'm a happy drunk by the way, for those who might have the slightest interest in reading any of this. I hypothesis that I am naturally a happy person,...
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Hello Community. Call me Shaddess. I promise it is a name that has meaning and isn't some obscure reference to sun glasses 
shaddess:
This is something I wrote after a very important man in my life passed away. Its depressing as hell. >
The days become cold as I sink here all alone. I leave far behind me the world I have always known. No snow on the ground, no leaves other then green, but I still sit here alone, cold like a stone. I sink to the depth, where the mind never rests, sinking alone in this hell of my own. Another has gone as a legacy burns. I am the last of us though I have nothing to earn. My home falls and crumbles, the bricks turn to sand. My mind falls like darkness like the sun without the will to stand. I have tried in my way, to rekindle my flame. But so much has been lost that it has become a nightmare to write again. I do what I can to keep some composure, but tears fall away while I search desperately for closure. The last hero is gone, leaving me soundly adrift. I can think of little else, but these torments and rifts. With no one left to guide me, all my father's dead and buried, I can't find the strength to stand up for duty.
There is a legacy in me, that I found out rather quickly. I am cursed in this life to have one good year in twenty. Each decade that starts, always comes with a tragedy, this time around has not found me lucky. So long ago, my father was taken from me, now my last hero has died and I am left empty. I feel pity that he could not go home once more before dying. I feel grateful he went with peace, for he had little with his family. I want to be with my heroes in this land where they are buried, but I am the last one who has even a small chance to be worthy. I failed so much and my life seems so hard. I want something good again but the universe is an evil god. No peace waits for me as everything I have crumbles, forcing me to leave all my hope with another. I want him to be better, to find things easy. I want him to live free, without this legacy of a dying.
The days become cold as I sink here all alone. I leave far behind me the world I have always known. No snow on the ground, no leaves other then green, but I still sit here alone, cold like a stone. I sink to the depth, where the mind never rests, sinking alone in this hell of my own. Another has gone as a legacy burns. I am the last of us though I have nothing to earn. My home falls and crumbles, the bricks turn to sand. My mind falls like darkness like the sun without the will to stand. I have tried in my way, to rekindle my flame. But so much has been lost that it has become a nightmare to write again. I do what I can to keep some composure, but tears fall away while I search desperately for closure. The last hero is gone, leaving me soundly adrift. I can think of little else, but these torments and rifts. With no one left to guide me, all my father's dead and buried, I can't find the strength to stand up for duty.
There is a legacy in me, that I found out rather quickly. I am cursed in this life to have one good year in twenty. Each decade that starts, always comes with a tragedy, this time around has not found me lucky. So long ago, my father was taken from me, now my last hero has died and I am left empty. I feel pity that he could not go home once more before dying. I feel grateful he went with peace, for he had little with his family. I want to be with my heroes in this land where they are buried, but I am the last one who has even a small chance to be worthy. I failed so much and my life seems so hard. I want something good again but the universe is an evil god. No peace waits for me as everything I have crumbles, forcing me to leave all my hope with another. I want him to be better, to find things easy. I want him to live free, without this legacy of a dying.