so.. this week has been so fucked up. right now im on "leave" from the psych ward. tuesday, i went to the dr. to stop my mind racing.. and apparently i scored high enough on the depression test that they were like "
we highly recommend you stay in." so i stayed in 2 days and then came out on "leave" had to go in...
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we highly recommend you stay in." so i stayed in 2 days and then came out on "leave" had to go in...
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i am still waiting to get into th drs about my bipolar stuff. 12 more weeks waiting time at least. the depression is sort of undercontrol, sorta, but not really, and the mania is outrageous. i feel like i dont know if im coming or going.
i would like to take time for myself just be alone for a day or two, unfortunately that is...
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i would like to take time for myself just be alone for a day or two, unfortunately that is...
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which door would you pick? the lady or the tiger??
dont know anything about anything. i just take it as it comes. i know one of the boys thinks of me as a friend but i am moving too fast for him...the thing is this: whenhe ahs a problem, i have to listen and if i try to talk to him about how i feel, he shuts down. good friend eh?
boy 2 was on...
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boy 2 was on...
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nirbhao:
users are losers
anyway, I have amazing powers of compensation. double vision can have its benefits!
anyway, I have amazing powers of compensation. double vision can have its benefits!
gigondas:
Take time and be alone...it's good stuff.
so i miss my snog partner
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ge999:
Cool! I wouldn't mind living in Sweden! I visit every couple years. I especially like Stockholm, but it's all good. Where do you live?
ge999:
Hej Sakita, I don't ever get over to Gteborg and must do so sometime. I usually visit Stockholm, Uppsala, stergtland, land, and ocassionally the south or the north. I can imagine the winters must be hard, they are not easy in Seattle but they are neither as cold or as dark as your winters. I go to Sweden to see friends and family, to visit museums, eat awesome food, and hear good music. My grand parents moved to the states from Sweden so I have always been somewhat connected. I must say though I like Sweden more and more all the time. So it would not be hard for me to live there, at least in the late spring, summer and fall. So, do you miss the States? do you come back often?
so boys fought over me the other night. that was fun. they ended up best friends, but i actually snogged the one i wanted to. and then when i told the one i was thinking about when i snogged the one i wanted to snog, he got all jealous.
so i bit him and he said he liked it but was too tired and boring...
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so i bit him and he said he liked it but was too tired and boring...
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gigondas:
You snogged him?!? Right on, darlin'. Tell me more.
why is it the one thing i need least of all, is the one thing i want most of all?
tobie:
Because life is like that.
*hugs*
xxx
*hugs*
xxx
so justin said to me the other day some words that ring true.
why is it that the thing that makes you strong
is often your biggest weakness?
why is it that the thing that makes you strong
is often your biggest weakness?
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inked:
Ah then I understand why you don't like it. It's much better to live in the same city as you work... Why did you move to Sweden I so much want to live in the states. Sweden is boring and cold... 
Oh thanks, they really are adorable 
.. I did this with my built in isgiht webcam. If I have a cam or a phone Loke jsut want to take it and look at it hehe On the computer we can look at it at the sametime we record it..
Oh thanks, they really are adorable .. I did this with my built in isgiht webcam. If I have a cam or a phone Loke jsut want to take it and look at it hehe On the computer we can look at it at the sametime we record it..
gigondas:
The yin and the yang, I believe. I loved the swedish the other day, um, week. The phone has been stolen and it will be a bit before it is replaced. I steal these internet moments when I can now.
How is you?
How is you?
i fucking quit.
there comes a time when you have to pull down the hands, put up your dukes and fight.
im stupid. it wasnt me. but rejection is still rejection. my friendship doesnt come easily but
when you have it, im yours forever.
now.
we are going out tonight, to hang out and listen to music. there is only two ways this can go.
which way will...
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im stupid. it wasnt me. but rejection is still rejection. my friendship doesnt come easily but
when you have it, im yours forever.
now.
we are going out tonight, to hang out and listen to music. there is only two ways this can go.
which way will...
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nirbhao:
perfectly stated.
just try to enjoy yourself, and forget about the drama for a moment
just try to enjoy yourself, and forget about the drama for a moment
often times in life, i have to throw up my hands cover my face and say thats it, i quit, its too much. even though i know its the biggest pussy thing to do.
i keep telling myself i know how i am felt about. i keep telling myself, he is sick and has a disease (depression) and that it doesnt make him like me...
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i keep telling myself i know how i am felt about. i keep telling myself, he is sick and has a disease (depression) and that it doesnt make him like me...
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nirbhao:
I learned something the other day that was really helpful.
apparently, not breaking up with someone we should break up with is a common coping mechanism for women who are overwhelmed with other shit. the last thing we want is one more difficult transition or change.
apparently, not breaking up with someone we should break up with is a common coping mechanism for women who are overwhelmed with other shit. the last thing we want is one more difficult transition or change.
i quit
nirbhao:
(hugs)
gigondas:
Wha?
I'm driving.