What would you sacrifice for those you love? That’s is a question that I pondered for many restless nights as I felt myself drowning. I should have opened up to her about how bad I was getting. It would have let her know what she truly means to me.. but I couldn’t pull her down with me, not when I felt like I was being pulled down by the demons of my own past. I knew I would hurt her the longer she stayed in my life. And that was the catch stay in her life and pull her down with me or hurt her and push her out of my life.. some people are a blazing beacon of beauty in the world and they are the beyond the reach of those that fight demons daily. Though I may be soaked in the blood of the demons I battle daily I refuse to let the blood that I wade through taint the pure soul she is.. I made the decision to betray her trust to make sure she my demons never taint the angle she truly is. Thought I hate myself every moment knowing that I hurt her I know that it’s a sacrifice I had to make in order to make sure that she could find someone that is worthy of of the beauty she brings to the world. Hopefully some day I will be able to live with the sacrifice I had to make an not see the damage I caused to the purest person I’ve ever met but tell that day comes it is a weight I have to carry with me knowing that despite the pain it caused me I did one noble thing to protect her..
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