randumb_thought

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going on a date.

film at 11.

so it would appear that the job offer has completely fallen through. i've heard nothing else about it, and it's three weeks after i had expected to. oh well. i'm currently sniffing around to see if i can get myself another job. more to come later.

so yeah, the check i gave my landlady for half of this month's rent (that is, due at the beginning of this month) bounced. so if she decides to leave me alone about it until the first of the month, i'll owe $600. i get paid thursday. anybody got some change to spare?

on a side note, i'm drinking again tonight, so if anyone wants...
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nothing really to say right now. just felt like updating.

to anyone who happens to play mvp 2003: i just threw a perfect game with Mark Mulder against the Brewers. respect.

so that was a sad pathetic cry for help. ah well, i'm sober now. i gotta do a few things today..pay my water bill that hasn't been paid since..uhh, a long time ago..go to my dad's house and feed his dog..and wash some clothes..and maybe something else will come up, who knows.

i so want to call someone right now. i'm constantly by myself when i drink, so people here on SG are about hte closest i get to human contact. i swear i won't stalk anyone. who's game?

ordering pizza drunk is #1. that is all.

god damnit. i feel so fucking miserable right now. i still feel like i might be manic, as i have for a while. of course, it's also possible that i'm being a worthless pitiful drama queen. king. what the hell ever. in any case, i feel like shit.

ok, so...it's time for me to give an update on my life. here goes:

we have sales quotas that we have to meet every two weeks. the company rules state that if a salesperson does not meet these quotas for three consecutive pay periods, he or she may very well be terminated. up until about thursday, i was deathly frightened that this rule would've been...
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god DAMN my head hurts. the final count for last night was something like four shots of cuervo, a whole bottle of grape maddog, half a bottle of peaches n cream maddog, and several beers. i woke up this morning and nick was gone..which is fine. "this morning," of course, actually means 1:15 in the afternoon. oh well, i still need to sober up some....
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i'm about to go play some late night soccer and then split a bottle of tequila with two other fellas. at least i'm getting out of the house..right?!

ok..so plans changed slightly. after playing soccer, we split what turned out to be about half a bottle of tequila and half a bottle of southern comfort. after a few shots of those, that wasn't enough, so...
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drinking. eating homemade tacos. listening to default (at the moment). i..actually, i can't say that i hate my life at the moment. i'm not in a very depressed mood. i do wish that i could be with someone whose company i would enjoy, though. this is not to be confused with "i hate being alone," mind you. i'm sure i could spend my time with...
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