Yeah, yeah. I know it's been forever. I can't believe I am actually sitting in front of my computer!
I went home last week. My father had a heart attack. Two stents were placed in his heart and they battled to keep his pressure up for several days. But he was released yesterday morning and I am relieved. He tells me he finally "sprung form the pokey". He can be so funny even when he's not well.
I stayed with my best friend when I went home (since my mother insisted on staying at the hospital all night with my father). Unfortunately, she just experienced her fourth miscarriage. She tried so hard not to talk about it. (She wanted to be there for me, not vice versa.) This woman deserves a child more than anyone I know. I held her as she cried. I HATE seeing her cry. I wish I could take all that pain away.
On a more upbeat note, my roommate is 4.5 months pregnant and doing well. (For those of you that don't know, I live in a house with another couple.) She is absolutely adorable and is getting to the "happy" stage of her pregnancy.
I've been working like crazy. I forget what day it is most of the time. Normally this is one of the two days off from ALL of my jobs. However, I agreed to work tonight for a friend of mine at the lab. After closing, I forgot which day it was and had thoroughly convinced myself I was to go in to my full-time job tonight. I finally asked someone what day it was. Imagine how I felt when they said "Thursday."
Feeling stupid, I got in my car and drove home in the rain.
I hear a batch of storms (a.k.a. hurricane) will be hitting within the next couple of days.
Storms = hell on earth at full-time job
Yay for me.
I had some crazy guy come into the lab Monday telling me about his wildlife exploration in South Carolina, USA. I heard this for 3.5 HOURS. I finally got to kick him out when I was trying to close.
I had a lady come in today and do nothing but bitch about a project we had all worked so hard on for the last three days. I wanted to go ape-shit. SHE was the straw.
I honestly believe with all this work (another job on the horizon), I will lose my social life completely. I already feel very disconnected from everyone. I feel weird not having to be somewhere at this moment. I hear all these people around me talking about doing this and that (all in their free-time that is) and I find myself very envious and almost angry at them. It's no one's fault but my own that I'm working this much now. It's not their fault they have free time. But why am I still angry?
I got mad at Cassius today for a very stupid reason. I got up and went to the lab. After my 'bout of confusion, I went to the store and the gas station, then came home. He was still in bed. I WAS PISSED. But why? He did nothing wrong. He goes to work too, but this was his night off.
Or I'll come home and find him on the computer. Disgusted, I'll go to bed to get 5 hours of sleep, 4 days a week. The rest of my time is spent working, or in transition. I guess in the back of my mind, I expect everyone to be as miserable as I am. But there again, who did this to me? I did. SO why am I bitching?
Argh.
I went home last week. My father had a heart attack. Two stents were placed in his heart and they battled to keep his pressure up for several days. But he was released yesterday morning and I am relieved. He tells me he finally "sprung form the pokey". He can be so funny even when he's not well.
I stayed with my best friend when I went home (since my mother insisted on staying at the hospital all night with my father). Unfortunately, she just experienced her fourth miscarriage. She tried so hard not to talk about it. (She wanted to be there for me, not vice versa.) This woman deserves a child more than anyone I know. I held her as she cried. I HATE seeing her cry. I wish I could take all that pain away.
On a more upbeat note, my roommate is 4.5 months pregnant and doing well. (For those of you that don't know, I live in a house with another couple.) She is absolutely adorable and is getting to the "happy" stage of her pregnancy.
I've been working like crazy. I forget what day it is most of the time. Normally this is one of the two days off from ALL of my jobs. However, I agreed to work tonight for a friend of mine at the lab. After closing, I forgot which day it was and had thoroughly convinced myself I was to go in to my full-time job tonight. I finally asked someone what day it was. Imagine how I felt when they said "Thursday."
Feeling stupid, I got in my car and drove home in the rain.
I hear a batch of storms (a.k.a. hurricane) will be hitting within the next couple of days.
Storms = hell on earth at full-time job
Yay for me.
I had some crazy guy come into the lab Monday telling me about his wildlife exploration in South Carolina, USA. I heard this for 3.5 HOURS. I finally got to kick him out when I was trying to close.
I had a lady come in today and do nothing but bitch about a project we had all worked so hard on for the last three days. I wanted to go ape-shit. SHE was the straw.
I honestly believe with all this work (another job on the horizon), I will lose my social life completely. I already feel very disconnected from everyone. I feel weird not having to be somewhere at this moment. I hear all these people around me talking about doing this and that (all in their free-time that is) and I find myself very envious and almost angry at them. It's no one's fault but my own that I'm working this much now. It's not their fault they have free time. But why am I still angry?
I got mad at Cassius today for a very stupid reason. I got up and went to the lab. After my 'bout of confusion, I went to the store and the gas station, then came home. He was still in bed. I WAS PISSED. But why? He did nothing wrong. He goes to work too, but this was his night off.
Or I'll come home and find him on the computer. Disgusted, I'll go to bed to get 5 hours of sleep, 4 days a week. The rest of my time is spent working, or in transition. I guess in the back of my mind, I expect everyone to be as miserable as I am. But there again, who did this to me? I did. SO why am I bitching?
Argh.
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hawks:
Keep on keeping on sweetie.
fishlips:
i guess all i can say is that i'll be wishing that turn around for you a bit