paulsandman

Well well some rough stuff last weekend but so far this weekend is looking good. Life's a party I guess and I'm comped at the door. This weekend though is looking up spending this weekend perhaps with a pretty new friend I met

Once again I have the greatest friends in the world. It had to happen eventually, but Sunday it was my turn to lose it in a repressed emotional outburst and lose it I did. What reduced me to such a mess finally well upteen years of repressing anger at my father. Yes its the old goth scream of anguish "daddy never loved me" While this...
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I have the greatest friends in the world my best friend got me a Dragon lamp this week and a myst maker chalice. I guess my room with the sword hanging on the wall, various occult books, black out curtains, smoke spewing chalice. and statues of a dragon hold and globe(the lamp) my room really does live up to its nick name the chamber.

Humm lets see here its been an interesting week to say the least full of some weird stuff, some bullshit, and well some good.
First off the bullshit I was informed in my final job evaluation Friday that by the 30th I will be offically no longer working there. This load of shit really pissed me off since there was really no excat reason for...
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Okay this is fucked, for some reason Day time cold medience makes me sleepy but night time cold medience keeps me awake. I must learn also ignoring the symptons of a cold just make it worse not better.

Friends a fun PPV, all of yelling at people going into a Catholic school not to drink the kool-aid A great way to end the weekend I daresay.
A quick update I was sad to see this name go gray. Alas Faith has moved on One of my favorite girls and a friend. I hope she does well with what she has planned in the...
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Always remember the old adage keep your friends close but your enemies even closer. Always important to remember that.
Why do I go with a grim entry like this with my journal? The answer is simple lately in my life its seems I got the close friends sure we disagree and even have some bad moments as I mentioned in previous journals but them bottomline...
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Blah that was the one word to describe tonight. Next time I go to the local night spot I'm going by myself none of my best friend or her boy friend they can leave the drama with them. I mean I really do care lots for my best friend and like I told her tonight she does have my support no matter what. To be...
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Last night was a pretty good birthday party for my best friend. Espacially giving her 24 spankings with her flogger while her hands where cuffed Now those are birthday spankings. At least I didn't get to give her 24 of them she yelled mercy at 14

Drain The Blood by the Distillers seemed to be the theme song of the day yesterday, not just because I bought the corals fangs CD yestertday. Melissa, Brad and I deceided to invade the gross symbol of captalism and maul the local mall. Not only is there usually an oppressive nature to malls but well you spend a shitload of money like in the CD...
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I still feel horrible tonight last night was by far one of the worst nights ever at goth night. Looking back maybe it wasn't such a good idea to go there this soon. It all started when I brought my best friend and her new b/f back to her home in Ithaca I suggest we go to goth night. All good so far all dressed...
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AntiValentine's Day parties this Friday *sniffs* it restores some of my faith in humanity...well not really heh