It's true, dear friends.
No matter how much I ignore it, or deny it, or attempt to break free of it -- I am broken. **pause** OK, to satisfy the naysayers amongst you (you know who you are) perhaps I am merely badly sprained.
Beautiful girl meets nocut. Flirts with same for several weeks. Makes intentions known (no time for honest-to-goodness relationship, but casual sex would be fine, thank-you-very-much.) And... I can't do it. I doesn't feel 'right.' My mind flip-flops to moral / ethical questions while I should be enjoying the moment, which ruins the moment. Why can't I just turn off my brain? Enjoy myself, for chrissakes?
I haven't told her yet, but I'm ending this... whatever it is. Before it even begins. It isn't right. I see a pattern emerging here. I've said that a situation / encounter / relationship 'isn't right' before... all in the last year. I can't seem to feel content. Can't commit.
Why am I cursed with this conscience?
I don't want to be the 'nice guy.'
In other news... rabble-rahr!! (that's what dinosaurs say.)
--nocut
No matter how much I ignore it, or deny it, or attempt to break free of it -- I am broken. **pause** OK, to satisfy the naysayers amongst you (you know who you are) perhaps I am merely badly sprained.
Beautiful girl meets nocut. Flirts with same for several weeks. Makes intentions known (no time for honest-to-goodness relationship, but casual sex would be fine, thank-you-very-much.) And... I can't do it. I doesn't feel 'right.' My mind flip-flops to moral / ethical questions while I should be enjoying the moment, which ruins the moment. Why can't I just turn off my brain? Enjoy myself, for chrissakes?
I haven't told her yet, but I'm ending this... whatever it is. Before it even begins. It isn't right. I see a pattern emerging here. I've said that a situation / encounter / relationship 'isn't right' before... all in the last year. I can't seem to feel content. Can't commit.
Why am I cursed with this conscience?
I don't want to be the 'nice guy.'
In other news... rabble-rahr!! (that's what dinosaurs say.)
--nocut
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hayes:
hey! long time no.....comment? How goes it? (above included) hope it's for the good
sharona1881:
the nice guys always get the girl longest, seriously