Always Questions, Never Answers
I am at a total loss as to what to do with myself.
I dropped all my classes this semester thinking I would never go back. Then I felt that I should go back but in a different program. Now, I don't really think I should go back. I feel like I would be going just to avoid work and the 'real world'. Besides the program I would go back into (Computer Science) interests me on some level but I don't think I am passionate enough about it to finish a whole degree.
This is completely depressing. I am tired of false starts, bad decisions and going in circles. I want to find something that I am really into, a calling that fits like a glove and I am sure about. Something I won't start to question once the going gets tough.
That is another thing. Sometimes I think I'm not cut out to do anything. That I just cut and run whenever things get tough. I've got to believe that isn't true but it lurks in the back of my mind and provides another reason for me to second guess myself.
The harder I try to figure out what I want to do the more elusive it seems. All I get is questions, never answers. I feel like the clock is ticking too. I mean 24 isn't that old but I feel like I should definitely have more direction than I do.
I feel lost.
I am at a total loss as to what to do with myself.
I dropped all my classes this semester thinking I would never go back. Then I felt that I should go back but in a different program. Now, I don't really think I should go back. I feel like I would be going just to avoid work and the 'real world'. Besides the program I would go back into (Computer Science) interests me on some level but I don't think I am passionate enough about it to finish a whole degree.
This is completely depressing. I am tired of false starts, bad decisions and going in circles. I want to find something that I am really into, a calling that fits like a glove and I am sure about. Something I won't start to question once the going gets tough.
That is another thing. Sometimes I think I'm not cut out to do anything. That I just cut and run whenever things get tough. I've got to believe that isn't true but it lurks in the back of my mind and provides another reason for me to second guess myself.
The harder I try to figure out what I want to do the more elusive it seems. All I get is questions, never answers. I feel like the clock is ticking too. I mean 24 isn't that old but I feel like I should definitely have more direction than I do.
I feel lost.
There is no rush to make decisions immediately.
good luck in your direction choice