I am exhausted!
Didn't sleep well and was up at 5 am to help a friend with a shoot doing prop stills for some jennifer anniston and steve zahn movie that is in production here. You know, when there are pictures of an actor when they are young or family portraits on the walls that are in movies? someone has to shoot them.
This morning...
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Didn't sleep well and was up at 5 am to help a friend with a shoot doing prop stills for some jennifer anniston and steve zahn movie that is in production here. You know, when there are pictures of an actor when they are young or family portraits on the walls that are in movies? someone has to shoot them.
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dot:
thanks darling!
rendo:
enjoy L.A....i miss that place a lot.
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elleseven:
I want a hot toddy too! I will settle for an attempt at sleep.
elleseven:
yes yesss...
Out out, damn spot!
Out out, damn spot!
Depression is something that I have dealt with my whole life, but I have a hard time admitting to myself when I am in the midst of.
Throughout my life, I have always had to be the strong one and it is hard to break that, even when it is no longer true. Unfortunately, it is usually at a breaking point before I can look...
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Throughout my life, I have always had to be the strong one and it is hard to break that, even when it is no longer true. Unfortunately, it is usually at a breaking point before I can look...
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stellaris:
thank you 
yes P_mod is a great photographer but the pic in my blog was taken by another one and is not part of the set which was send in. the pics send in are much better
yes P_mod is a great photographer but the pic in my blog was taken by another one and is not part of the set which was send in. the pics send in are much better
Depression is really stupid. It makes no fucking sense at all.
ASS, I say!
At least the sun is out for a little peak, I am off on a long motorcycle ride to try and clear out the cobwebs...
and the sludge,
and the...
ASS, I say!
At least the sun is out for a little peak, I am off on a long motorcycle ride to try and clear out the cobwebs...
and the sludge,
and the...
monster_girl:
i hear you - i have depression as well. sometimes you just sink for no reason at all - and that is usually the most frustrating feeling ever.
hope the ride made you feel better - that usually does the trick for me.
hope the ride made you feel better - that usually does the trick for me.
and now for something completely different...
so fucked up... seriously tears came and everything. Well, tears combined with with beer coming out my nose... but ya.
so fucked up... seriously tears came and everything. Well, tears combined with with beer coming out my nose... but ya.
It's funny where you might find yourself at times in your life. You know, your walking down the warm familiar street that is your life and all of a sudden everything is different...no longer warm and familiar. No familiar landmarks. Nothing comfortable nor inviting. only the foreign and cold where home use to be. You walk and walk and it's all different. You realize that...
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cvi:
thanks for the comment!
Break ups really suck... but after a little while things always get better. For now I'm waiting for the good part
Break ups really suck... but after a little while things always get better. For now I'm waiting for the good part
elleseven:
Things will turn up, monovox.
You know it. You can't keep thinking all is lost, nor that you will never feel the same about someone again. You have in the past, and will in the future.
Be... strong...! (a little dumb and dumber excerpt to lighten the mood.)
You know it. You can't keep thinking all is lost, nor that you will never feel the same about someone again. You have in the past, and will in the future.
Be... strong...! (a little dumb and dumber excerpt to lighten the mood.)
I am done in and undone. I am tired. pace, pace, back and forth. brain lungs battered and weeping from abuse. brain screams white noise, fuzzy patterns partially formed, dissipating when touched. no sleep, no respite. same old story. same old tune.
blah, blah, blah.
blah, blah, blah.
elleseven:
i heard you snoring last night for at least a little while 
, while I could not sleep.
and you are right, love is not love if it is not unconditional. I hate that part.
, while I could not sleep. and you are right, love is not love if it is not unconditional. I hate that part.
Santa Fe, NM.
I moved from Santa Fe to Portland 16 years ago. This is my first time back. I thought that I was prepared for the changes, but I wasn't. got a bit cranky last night after driving around searching for anything familiar... It is just a different town. I mean, what did I expect after 16 years? After all, part of the reason...
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I moved from Santa Fe to Portland 16 years ago. This is my first time back. I thought that I was prepared for the changes, but I wasn't. got a bit cranky last night after driving around searching for anything familiar... It is just a different town. I mean, what did I expect after 16 years? After all, part of the reason...
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jocelynn:
Thanks for the add back
Thanks for the story, I'm glad somebody can relate to my "pain", hehe. What really gets me is that I can see all my shots in my head, but I can't share them with anybody... le sigh. It really kills me; maybe I need to take up painting. haha
Thanks for the story, I'm glad somebody can relate to my "pain", hehe. What really gets me is that I can see all my shots in my head, but I can't share them with anybody... le sigh. It really kills me; maybe I need to take up painting. haha
elleseven:
You RAWK meestor!
I am in Monument Valley, Arizona tonight. The ride today was amazing. Thuncder and lightning storms all around me, but never got rained on. Made for a much cooler day as well. Tomorrow I think I am heading through the park and towards the 4 corners area before heading to santa fe. It's been a very long time since I have been back (since I...
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I am in the desert of southern utah by Zions national park. It is very beautiful, I miss the living in the desert, but the people in utah would drive me nuts. I was going to move on tomorrow, but in a systems check of the motorcycle, the tires were getting pretty worn. I could probably get a couple thousand more miles out of them,...
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