mephausto

Hey, doll. I hope you have been receiving my messages. You are missed, I tell you missed.

So contemplative are you. Away from yourself you are.
- so says master yoda anyway.

It seems to me Meph, you are adrift because you have fallen into a trap of not thinking, or perhaps acting, like yourself. And maybe I am full of shit. I don't know.

As an outsider, I see a change from the Meph I met some many months ago. The Meph of coffee, bowling, and of course sushi. Not that we do not change, but more that you seem less happy with your life than when we met. And again, perhaps I'm full of shit.

I certainly hope you are feeling much better. p tells me you were sick last week. Drop in and say hi when you get the chance. I miss our long conversations over sushi. 'Wish you were here.

Have you ever read anything by Walter Pater. He too speaks off living and fire together. His coined phrase was "a hard gem-like flame". He was important to the Aesthetic movement and a mentor to Wilde, hence my caring about his opinions. Anyhow I think you'd like his stuff.

I wish you luck about your thoughts and in your head settledness.

merf

See, that works for me because most of the summer I was pretty down and un-motivated, then in the last few months I've been feeling pretty good but it's gets dark way early.

You came up randomly on the hookup page and I couldn't help but notice we share the same day for ultimate life giving. I hate to be the kind of person to place too much significance on a random day on a man made calendar, but April 27 could totally kick any other day's ass in a no holds barred cage match.

for some reason I get the feeling you're about to step from the eye of the storm into the cruel winds again. Here's hoping they don't tear this contented moment asunder. Sheeeit jim, these streets are a bitch baby.

What up man, hope your having fun on your side of the world!!!

Peace.

:Good ol day after wednesday and i wonder when you are going to be visiting us again? We might be down briefly thurs night of the 16th but i don't know what plans she might have cookin. Peace and cookies with ice cream!

wow after reading that i feel like shit saying, no i have not had them bitten in awhile. please remedy this as soon as possible.

anyway, im sorry things are rough right now. relationship woes can be the worst, but that just means you need to come to pirate thursday and let me bite on you till you smile, or kick me.

Oh, how that hits home. It sounds a lot like where I have been before. Not fun. Although Thursday was fun robot man.

ive had that song stuck in my head for days. probably because ive been listening to it far too much lately. mostly just that one line though.

COME BOWLING COME BOWLING COME BOWLING.
theres nothing hotter than a bunch of drunk pdx kids in bowling shoes.

*tucks you in*

guess who totally went to pirates cove and got drinks.

thats right.

HEY! So I went to the Pirates Cove last night and Big Daddy said you guys had just left! I sat alone for like an hour until Gingerlie and December showed up. Then we all put a pirate curse on you for not staying long enough.

ARR!

I like your mendicant posts. I've just come back to university and being in charge of orientation (for the unofficial freaks and geeks dorm) really makes your words resonate with me. *shrug* the same old stuff can certainly look new again even when you know it is an illusion.

i love clavicals, especially mine. theyre so fucking sexy. i want to get mine pierced. sorry i missed tonight. we should figure out if next week you can get my underage ass in to pirate thursdays, cuz bigdirtys gonna be gone and ill be bored.