There is, perhaps, something to be said for confinement and enforced structure. More and more, I have worked to rid myself of shackles and I feel almost free to do whatever I want. And it's pretty unpleasant.
I think that in my rush to get away from things I didn't want, I never considered what I actually wanted. Someone asked me the other day, "If you had a million dollars, what would you do?" and after struggling to come up with something useful for a few minutes, I said "Probably go back to bed."
I feel that something might be happening, something big, that all of a sudden I will see the light and all will be made clear and I'll know where I'm supposed to go and what I'm supposed to do. But I had that feeling once before, and it was buried under distractions and misdirections, leaving me running in circles until I forgot where I was headed. And I can't just sit around doing nothing, waiting for an epiphany that might never come, can I? Please?
I think that in my rush to get away from things I didn't want, I never considered what I actually wanted. Someone asked me the other day, "If you had a million dollars, what would you do?" and after struggling to come up with something useful for a few minutes, I said "Probably go back to bed."
I feel that something might be happening, something big, that all of a sudden I will see the light and all will be made clear and I'll know where I'm supposed to go and what I'm supposed to do. But I had that feeling once before, and it was buried under distractions and misdirections, leaving me running in circles until I forgot where I was headed. And I can't just sit around doing nothing, waiting for an epiphany that might never come, can I? Please?