m_bethany

"life is all a matter of perspective: if your life is going well and you find yourself walking along the beach with two Metalica rejects, you might think it was a bad day. on the other hand, if your life is in the toilet and you have a nasty phinal sytrait hangover you could say... 'what the hell? I AM at the beach'....."

have you...
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I dig my toes into the sand
The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds
Strewn across a blue blanket
I lean against the wind
Pretend that I am weightless
And in this moment I am happy...

as this morning drones on and I wait yet again for another paycheck long overdue, I find myself listening to only INCUBUS. everything from "S.C.I.E.N.C.E." to "A Crow Left...
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"you kill one person, you go to prison.
you kill ten people, you go to Texas where they hit you on the head with a brick,
twenty people - you go to a hospital where they look at you through a small window forever.
and, over that, we can't deal with it...

"someone who has killed over a hundred thousand people - we are almost...
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"Hello?
Is there anybody in there?
Just nod if you can hear me.
Is there anyone home?
Come on, now.
I hear you're feeling down.
Well I can ease your pain,
Get you on your feet again.
Relax.
I need some information first.
Just the basic facts,
Can you show me where it hurts?
There is no pain, you are receding.
A distant ship's smoke...
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it was what was left in the box with all the pictures of me...

the four seasons card key was in the box as well as the piece of her mirror, the one I loved more than myself. it was a pink little bag and the crumbs were there...

old habits die hard. and me without a cigarette.
regardless, the box is clean and all...
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of all these lovers in my past
I thank the gods for emptyness
for the feel of what we think
is enough for one to drink
i hold this pain close to the past
and in this spring I caress and pass
no one shadowed holds the appeal
of something deep and something real
inside this hole I reconcile
the holes deep I recoil and...
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his back is turned to me but I know he feels me.
the comfort for me to hold him from behind, to cuddle him
my arms wrapped around, holding on in assurence.

"this feels good" I think to myself
wondering how long I have waited for this comfort.
damn this feeling, I need to wind down.
too bad he sleeps soundlessly while I struggle to...
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And she was lying in the grass
And she could hear the highway breathing
And she could see a nearby factory
Shes making sure she is not dreaming
See the lights of a neighbors house
Now shes starting to rise
Take a minute to concentrate
And she opens up her eyes

The world was moving and she was right there with it (and she was)...
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"oh the tangled webs we weave,
when we practice to decieve".

strike the blow, deeper then. the pain is cleansing. you think this is your action? your thoughts? I asked for you to strike me down... the irony I find is solace enough in this moment for the balance to be set.

I lite my match, I do not fear watching myself in a mirror...
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