More specifically ASMR and content creators like Aftyn of https://aftynroseasmr.com/
She started out small, doing her thing, as most noob ASMRtists do, and grew her little devoted YouTube ASMR community..
Except.. She was weird.
She did all the typical things, whispers, stories, body tapping, ear licking/eating, and then the muckbang type things with food and candy, and along the way she must have done something...
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Sometimes it feels like the distance between you and someone online is a few milliseconds of latency
Sometimes it feels greater than the geographical distance, approaching closer to infinity
I didn't mean it disparagingly though. If there's any way to just state a fact like that without a pejorative intent towards her.
I'm mad at myself.
She does care a little. Enough so for us to still be friends in the face of abuse mental/verbal from her bf who insists I'm some lecherous violent devil only preying on her for my own pleasure. And...
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That's kinda cool ig .. but I don't smoke so doesn't mean anything to me
The punchline to that story was that the next day I go to check our streak and snapchat is like your friend just added you on snapchat.
I'm like..
You delete me.
I have no ability to describe my state of mind even several hours later. But basically I can't work now because I'm so shook.
16 hours and all that bullshit later
I'd been...
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Same topic..
But as months have passed I realised something.
Or like there's only 1 friend I can discuss this issue with for a couple of important reasons... Because she's not sending me nudes.. I'm still confused.
So today at lunch I got bullied
I've never said such a thing, because it has never happened... but given the circumstances and the long standing confusion I...
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He's like hey man.. you can't be that nice, my friend from highschool was like you and he committed suicide
I'm like yep
He's like he killed himself
I'm like yes i understand because that's what happens
However.. I'm 36 so if by now, 15 years older than I thought I'd get to.. and on a trajectory that seems like there's a wall coming at...
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So.. due to some stuff I'll have to spend pages explaining later.. like when I can use a keyboard... And haven't slept (I've been at work for 23 hours) and there's the major snowstorm going on outside..
I spent some part of my shift, as I can't explain how this keeps happening, talking to the boyfriends of my friends.
It happened that both essentially confirmed...
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Having mentioned the other situation though of wow ok you sent me nudes.. why?
What do you do.
Especially once the sender goes oh um yeah that was a mistake I shouldn't have sent those.. like yeah you shouldn't have but where does that leave me. I'm fairly very reactive to NSFW material and I mean it wasn't even that much but it was over...
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So my friend won't send me nudes.
Many things have happened in the last few months but this is a constant.. she's never sent me nudes and pretty much said she won't. She's in a committed relationship and there's no way in hell I would impinge on that. Or that she'd be disloyal.
And while I don't consider myself a sugar daddy (to her) even...
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