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Okay, I'm only writing this journal becuase I don't want to look at the last one again. I'm being a coward. I'm doing nothing. Almost as much as my mom....

I'm so close to tears right now, writing people emails is making me feel like I'm in a freaking counseling session. Trying to use other people's questions to try to figure yourself out. It doesn't...
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rudegirl:
Do'nt let your escape be ruined. Everyone needs one now and then.
tiffanymarie:
That's a great idea, but you still have to spend money buying the materials. Hmmm... maybe that's what I'll do. I know my mom would surely cherish me baking something for her. Thanks so much sweetie!
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My mom tried to kill herself.

I'm the one who had to call the police.

Her husband was there, and didn't bother.

I'm suppose to be doing something.

But I don't know what.

Update: So here's what happened. My phone is ringing off the hook this morning. We haven't been answering it, because all it is are sales people. I had finally had enough, picked...
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tiffanymarie:
Oh sweetie, I am so sorry once again about your mom. I hope that this doesn't happen again. It sounds like she needs to get away from that husband of hers. Thank you for thinking about me, I know it's a fucked up situation, but I understand. Take care of yourself. And don't forget if there is anything at all email me or comment me.

Did you make it through those four hours? I couldn't have. Geez, you are tough! Take care sweetie. kiss
rudegirl:
Why won't she leave him? Fear? Perhaps she could stay with you for awhile. Stay strong for her , doll. Lemme know if i can do anything for you.
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Could you have winter depression?

1> You have trouble at work, making frequent mistakes or taking much longer than usual to finish your projects.

Check!

2> You can't keep up with household chores, and you miss deadlines for paying bills.

Check! I NEVER have late bills, til lately. frown

3> You need more sleep (sometimes hours more) than usual, have difficulty waking up and still feel...
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arcanite:
WildMunk. smile

I get depressed a bit during the winter too, if I'm not careful.
me44445:
That's a good guide to how to combat SAD... I'll try some of them
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I'm in a depression.

I should be back shortly.

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barbiq:
BE smile SOON!!!!!!!!! BY THE WAY THANKS FOR THE COMMENTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
jcup:
Im Sorry. Im not sure that there's anything to say that would be helpfull at all except that I hope you find something that you can love that will excite you and give you hope. I wish you something new and great that will change your life and make you feel good about your life and the direction it's headed. kiss
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I have:

Gone bowling with my hubby, my friend from Colorado, and a bunch of people I don't know very well. I had fun, drank a little, and learned that I STILL suck at bowling.

Went to see the movie Saw. It was actually pretty good. I'd recommend it to anyone who likes nasty, gory type movies that are pretty damn suspenseful. The ending went...
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tiffanymarie:
bowling is so much fun. even if you totally suck so much ass at it. i haven't gone bowling in like two years. that's waaaay too long. good luck with figuring out all the car business.
coldblood81:
Hi, thanks for the responce. Yeah, not only is it sad but it's hard to deal with. It kinda helps to Know that others have been there before.
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This week has gone by sooooo fast! One more day, and I have my two days off. I need to come up with something to do.... who knows what though. I'm tired of being bored... I'm going to get out and do stuff dammit!

My friend Mike is suppose to be in town. I hope he remembers me...

I'm sleepy. My plan for tonight: do...
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dusty:
i love that you think i have a sexy face...and what an arse youve got there yourself...thanks for the comment so long ago on my set...xox dusty
deliverer:
Do you realize how amazing your butt is?
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So, what have I been doing that I need to fill you in on? I think I talked about how we went out drinking on election night. My friend that went out with us that night called into work the next day. We thought it was pretty weird he called in at 2:30am. Well... turns out the dumb fuck wound up in jail.

I'm always...
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jcup:
Buffalo is on burnside between 10th and 13th somewhere. There's also one on Hawthorn between 34th and 36th. That one is actually caddy corner from the red square. Fuck, I thought tonight would be mellow...fuck no. It was worse than last night. The plumbing blew out and we had to close the bar, and sewage was spewing everywhere. My manager, my coworker, and me had to clean it up as it was shooting out like a tidal wave. We're thinking about sueing for contamination hazards. So they didnt shut down the show, and we had to deal with it. I have an extra shift at another location in the morning, and Im fucking pissed. We're gonna make them pay for Hep C testing. The fucking plumber had that shit go in his mouth. It was sooooo fucking gross. Work might be closed for a while, and decontamination will be neccessary. The state is going to have to pay for it all since it was their fault. I hope we get a fat lawsuit that us 3 can live off of. BTW. You arent responsible for your friend's actions. If you're old enough to drink, then you're old enough to take responsibliity for what you do. Fuck with the bull you get the horns. My DWI's have all been bullshit, but there were times that I have driven fucked up and shouldve been sent to jail. Just so happens the times I was innocent I get the charges.
tiffanymarie:
You can't blame yourself for your friend going to jail. Were the keys in the ingnition? If so, poor thing. I wanted to thank for the comment you left in my last post. I appreciated it very much. Take care sweetie. Hopefully this friend of yours doesn't yell at you for this.
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So... who will let me run away to their place in Canada?Anyone, anyone?? I can't believe that Bush won. While drinking away my sorrows last night, I won too. 60 bucks gambling. Yay! Looks like I have to go buy a new water heater though. The showers are getting colder and colder. It sucks.

Anyways, I'm very dissapointed to live in a country with a...
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arcanite:
Many a time I've contemplated moving to another country.
rudegirl:
So youll leave your husband behind and start a new colony of all women.......
hey, that sounds fun, can I come too?
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JASON SAID: "Someone's asking for attention".

ERIC SAID: "You know, this self-loathing shit is getting old".

WHEN DID I TURN INTO THIS PERSON??? confused

It's almost the day. The day I learn if I must move to Canada. Please VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE!!!!!It'll mean a lot to me. And while you're at it, why don't you VOTE for my guy.... KERRY. Thanks. tongue kiss tongue
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b57913:
skull VOTE OR DIE! skull
rudegirl:
I wish everyone would steal my pic!! Keep your fingers crossed! wink
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It's Saturday. All the cool parties are happening. What am I doing? Sitting at home.

I spent three hours last night making evil angel wings out of coat hangers and tule... for nothing. Well, I can wear them to work tomorrow, but that's just not as cool as swinging by the bar or a kick ass party. Why aren't there any cool parties after high...
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jcup:
Im not sure what you're taking the photos at. My camera only takes big photos, so I edit them down with my program. Obviously you have some sort of program. You should size them to the absolute maximum to fit on SG. I did the house party thing for years. It sucked. It's basicly volunteering to be leeched from, be a babysitter, and have your shit fucked up at the expense of having something to do. Shit, since your of age, you and your hubby can go out with my girl and me. I'll show you the spots. Get a copy of the barfly as well. later. kiss