Today went better than expected. I still have the same headache from 9am this morning, but I can breathe. I ended things with my boyfriend this morning, and I am very sad to change our very sweet relationship, but I know it's for the best. I often find myself feeling as though I can be happier still and so I know that this is not who I'm meant to be with. And I know someone else could treat him better than I did. I was often short with him and sometimes didn't give him the attention he deserved, I attribute it to our opposing personalities and different views, however there's no excuse. I need to focus my attention on work and school now. I'll be working full time, have 2 classes, twice a week, and because of where I'll be going to school I'll be closer to my best friends and family. Hopefully at the end of my lease, I will have a good enough job to move closer and still have my own place. Even more hopefully still, I will win the Power Ball and can put up my family in the houses they deserve and my dad can retire and all will be well. One can dream. I applied at 2 very promising places, one involving dogs (YIPEE!!!) and the other I get to hang out and talk on the phone all day. ;P I feel hopeful again. I needed a big kick in the ass from Momma apparently, but now that I've learned how to deal with what she says, I feel unstoppable. She can be harsh, but I understand why she said the things she said and I know she's right. So now my focus is me, my family, school and learning, and work. No more distractions until they are more than worth it.
Things will get hard, but only for a short while. Everything is fleeting. And then, my hard decisions will have been made and I will be on my right path again. I can't wait.
I intend to spend all my free time at the gym, my parent's or grandma's houses, or at my apartment with good friends or Edgar. It won't be wasted. No effort is wasted.
Namaste. <3
Things will get hard, but only for a short while. Everything is fleeting. And then, my hard decisions will have been made and I will be on my right path again. I can't wait.
I intend to spend all my free time at the gym, my parent's or grandma's houses, or at my apartment with good friends or Edgar. It won't be wasted. No effort is wasted.
Namaste. <3