so, a relationship ends -
and you sit and say - oh, i just broke up, so i'm entitled to just wander around aimlessly.
a year later you realize that your old relationship really died two years ago - and you havent had a healthy relationship since then.
2 years since i've been close to another person; i've forgotten how to relate on that level. i've become cynical, closed off and a piece of who i used to be is gone.
i don't want my old relationship - not in the slightest, it was shitty and just a high school romance.
but i look around and see happy couples and happy people - im not saying i need another person to be complete; but doubt sets in.
i've had 1 relationship that actually is a relationship; other than that - I've been retarded/just not smart with people.
honestly - i thought turning 21 would solve this; i've solved nothing.
what the fuck am i missing?
in all honesty: i'm just a fucking moron
and you sit and say - oh, i just broke up, so i'm entitled to just wander around aimlessly.
a year later you realize that your old relationship really died two years ago - and you havent had a healthy relationship since then.
2 years since i've been close to another person; i've forgotten how to relate on that level. i've become cynical, closed off and a piece of who i used to be is gone.
i don't want my old relationship - not in the slightest, it was shitty and just a high school romance.
but i look around and see happy couples and happy people - im not saying i need another person to be complete; but doubt sets in.
i've had 1 relationship that actually is a relationship; other than that - I've been retarded/just not smart with people.
honestly - i thought turning 21 would solve this; i've solved nothing.
what the fuck am i missing?
in all honesty: i'm just a fucking moron
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I wish I could say that it gets easier, but most days, I don't even know which end is up. Hang in there.
And let's hang out again soon, okay?